I wonder when can I stop being so emo. It's like everyone of my friends are moving on with their lives and I can't even get a job at Berrylite. wtf. I've been sending resumes everywhere and none of them replied. Seriously am I really that bad? I think I can only blame myself for not having any working experience (this is fate..this is fate.. My destiny is to be a Tai-Tai). haha. haih not even funny anymore lah damn it.

And there's this thing about us.
I can see us dying. and it's really killing me inside.
And the more i tried to make thing right the more messed up it seems to be
Why must everything be so hard?

I am feeling so damn sad now that i need to look at the beautiful sunflower field picture above to cheer myself up. anyway. I also post the picture because i think my blog is too boring.

anyways. back from Jakarta for almost 2 weeks already. I miss my cousins a lot. and I miss Amazon a lot too. FYI, Amazon is the cheap arcade in Indo. 1 coin=Rp1,250=20cents! Awesome or not! and most of the machines only use 1 coin. like the spot the different game, 1 coin can lasts for about 20 minutes or so! depends on how good you are at the game actually. and there's one machine of spot the different that gives out tickets!oh i love arcade tickets seriously. and i think the best Amazon is at Artha Gading because they have like 3 floors of Amazon. Cool or not!
okay moving on.. I also miss the nice and cheap foods, I miss the time when i can see Jeffrey whenever i like because he is just in the next room, I miss the boring life i have in Indo, I miss helping my uncle fill in forms whenever the Wang Wang, Haitai and PeiTian containers are arriving.

I don't like looking for jobs.. I hate getting rejected. went to Parkway today to meet Gen and Mich!FINALLY! tried looking for part-time job because I'm getting sick of doing nothing at home while looking for more permanent job. HA! i bet some of you are shocked by the fact that I am tired of doing nothing at home!anyways. borders rejected me,Scoops rejected me too. but I have this interview with Berrylite on Monday. I hope i won't forget it because I always forget things lately. I mean like I forgot that I have to meet AIli,Khim and Carol on Monday that's why I have the interview on Monday.

I wished i don't have the damn 3 years bond. I'm regretting it like crazy now. I wished i don't have to grow up. I wished i can stay jobless right now and have the job that i like whenever i can.haha doesn't make sense at all but whatever. I wished i know what I want to do with my life. I wished I can be ambitious like other people.

BTW, I didn't know that Heal the World is Michael Jackson song until he passed away! I AM THE BEST. I mean i know the song, but i dont know the singer and the title. CRAZY OR NOT. that song is probably the most popular song ever. anyway I am irritated by you know..people who are like so affected by MJ's death when theyre not even his fans or anything. ok la not necessary his fans but you get my drift. I was really shocked that he passed away though. let me tell you a story. Jeffrey's dad likes MJ,so when Mj held his one and only concert in Singapore, he went over here to watch and decided that Singapore is a nice place.so after that,he went back to Surabaya and sent all his sons over to Singapore.whee. so because of MJ, i get to meet Jeffrey here. haih.so romantic this story.(WTC?). wait actually idk whether its his one and only concert in Singapore or not..I think i heard it somewhere that it is.

okay lah I am le tired.