I almost died today.

so as usual i was sleeping in the bus this morning, then i woke up suddenly 'cause my back was so so so sore. i dont even know why. and on top of that i felt like puking so badly. very horrible feeling i tell you. then i reached my bus stop, got off from the bus then i suddenly felt like i was about to faint! panic panic!! can you imagine, i can even panic while i'm about to faint. lol so i tried to calm myself down by sitting down.haha so i felt better then i started crossing the road, jaywalked i mean. once i reached the other side..i felt like i was about to faint again! omg! so i walked so slowlyy. and kept on reminding myself not to faint. the worst part is i was already panting after walking a few steps! so then i have to climb two stairs to get to my lab. in the end i took the lift 'cause i really think i was going to die after i climbed the first stairs. what a horrible morning. but i felt much better after i did transfection. lol why ah? is it because there's better air circulation at the fumehood? lol.

I'm still feeling not so well now. so i guess i'm going to sleep early.hmm.

anyway on the way home, as usual i was sleeping.. actually no la i was just resting then i suddenly smell this sick smell you know.. then i was like okay la. then when i reached my bus stop i saw the security guard from my place going down also!! omg this security guard damn damn damn smelly one leh!! really!! i have such a powerfull nose leh! dont know whether it's a good or bad thing.bah. i'm generally okay with taking public transport ('cause i also can't and refused to learn driving. even if i can drive i won't have a car so why bother lol) but the problem with taking bus and all is all these smelly people la. omg i sound really mean but seriously! i hate smelly people! if youre smelly then wear perfume or smth la! i mean if you have BO then okay la.. i mean i dont like BO but sometimes they just can't control it mah. but there are lots of people who smells like they dont bathe one loh! damn annoying!

It's the 29th baby and it's out 7th year together. i dont have any mushy stuff to say to you('cause i'm quite incapable of saying such stuff) so i just want to say that my back is still damn sore so i cant think of anything. just come back here faster la! love love!

okay off to slack on my bed. yay.

back in Singapore :(
and there's work tomorrow :(

Hello from Indo! wahaha lame.
bah woke up late this morning cause i slept late the night before. haahha and i cant find my new contacts!! bah so angry.forget where i put them! wanted to buy new one just now but there's no time.
so reached here half an hour late because the plane was delayed blah blah blah. annoying this plane always late. and the feet space was so small. had an uncomfortable flight just now. so reached home and stoned. and went to this restaurant to eat.hahaha yay i ate meat!
anyway my house got 2 cold rooms. ahahah lol just like in the lab like that! so funny!
okay that's it for now.
goodbye from Indo! lol

Freedom Writers is such a nice movie! i mean i knew from the start how it would end and all that but it's still nice because of the racism issues and all! and Patrick Dempsey is damn calefare there. haha he's hot though.

had basic safety training the whole day. super boring! lucky today is the last session yay. and i was stuck in the bus for 1 1/2 hours when i was going to work in the morning! i dont why. i think there's jam in amber round about there but i didn't bother to find out what happened because sleeping's more important haha.

Sigh! Gladys attachment ends in one week! or two weeks i'm not sure. and when she leaves Khartik will still be in india. how! I'll be so lonely in the lab :(

meeting gen tmr. yeayyy. haha

anyway the other day my brother was playing Block Breaker with my handphone..so after a while he died. then he said this stupid sentence in his girly voice :
' Ah i died! what will my sister think of me!'
haha lol. damn retarded.

I've been feeling so down these past few days and i dont even know why.
found out that Khartik will go back for 3 weeks! thats damn long lah. so anyway i woke up late this morning but i wasnt late for work (i think).
have been struggling with proposal these few days. haha obviously i havent finish it. initially i want to finish it before Khartik goes back but well..obviously it's impossible.

wanted to ask gen out to watch Nights in Rodanthe this saturday but then i suddenly realised that i cant make it because I'm GOING BACK TO INDO.YAY. haha i want to watch mamma mia too. and many other movies! bah since jeffrey go away i havent go to cinema. okay maybe i went once for wall-e.

I need someone to talk to now! what i mean by someone is genfu.! and she's not online.and i'm too lazy to call her.what is this. I'm so hungry now :(

Last night my sis watched DVD. as in when my grandpa passed away and all that. she's so brave 'cos she can watched the whole thing! i watched for at most 5 minutes and i was crying. in the end i didn't watch it.

ok thats it.bye

It's the weekend! yay yay yay don't need to go to work. but i have to finish my proposal by monday because I want to ask Khartik about the project because he's going back to India for Deepavali! why like that! and he's going back for 2 weeks!! so long!nobody is going to wait for 8 hours to change media for me after transfection :(

Anyway work is okay these days..because.. i dont know why also. anyway I was damn shocked when i found out that Khartik is only 21 years old.!! anyway khartik is my 'mentor'..but he's not my supervisor okay.my supervisor is the boss whom i dont really interact too. anyway back to khartik's age..yes he's only 21 years old and he's been there for about 1 year already! so he started to work there when he's 20. and he graduated from NUS when he was 19/20! wah this boy damn smart. all along i thought that he's 24/25..haha damn 'yuan wang'. I still dont believe that he's 21 leh! but then he showed me his ID and well.. why life is so unfair! I'm only 1 year younger than him and i don't even have a diploma :( depressed. and he say it's normal in India. i mean normal that people get their degree at 19. Really meh!

So my future is still very blurry.haha. i still dont know what to do after poly! how like that! initially i wanted to work for a while and then study again. but then when i think about it what work can i do with just a diploma? some more GPA damn low. so then i suddenly feel like learning how to do bussiness, which is like so damn random lah. i want to know how my papa works you know. so i was thinking maybe i can go back indo and work with my papa for a while. haha but i dont think i will do that because it's just damn weird la. i even dreamt about it you know last night..it's like i tell my papa i want to travel with him and learn from him..and he said no!!! I'm even rejected in my own dream..what is this.. T_T

So if i want to go uni i have to go overseas of course. the nearest one is Aussie. okay actually there's Monash in KL but i heard it's hard to get in there. so anyway my point is I'm very lazy to go out to a new enviroment..have to settle down in a new place, find new friends..lazy la like that. some more i dont think there's enough money..sigh

Btw in a very random note, I feel that i've change a lot since i move to penang. its like in indo i was really cool lah.hHAHA i mean i made lots of friends back in Indo. then when i moved to penang i became damn retarded lah. maybe because everbody there speak in chinese and i cant even converse in chinese.but then again my school in Penang is like an Indon school because more than 50% of the students there are from Indo you know! it's like because after the race riot in Indo, the Indons started to run around the world haha. or maybe because i was bullied when i first got into the school by fellow Indons. why like that! yes i was bullied! by this girl and her friends.

oh oh and there's this weird story about this girl that bullied me. you know every chinese new year i always hang out at my rich aunty's house. so i think last year during CNY, i dont know what i was doing la, i think i was sleeping in my cousin's room or something (what's new la seriously) while the rest of the world were downstairs partying. haha okay la not partying,just hanging out. so during the ride home...my sisters told me that about this family who came and their daughters studied in the same school as we were (which in the school in penang) my sis know because some of their daughter were in the same class as my sister. and yes they are talking about that girl's family lah! the one who bullied me! and apparently her father worked for my uncle. i think. as in my uncle is his client or something. haha how small can this world be! and somemore my cousin keep on asking for the girl's number because he say she's pretty! what is this! but then it's all history now. HAHA action only.

hmm i think this is my longest post. feel like talking alot today i dont know why. oh btw! i watched Dreamgirls yesterday! i like it a lot yo! It's like i've been listening to beyonces's 'Listen' for the longest time but i never really watched the movie. after i watched it then i understand about the song! but the movie is a bit too long..its like about 2 hour plus. but i still like it!

oh and Aili! why you never come online nowadays! i want to tell you that my papa is distributing the rice rolls in indo! you know the one that we like to eat! the one thats made of lots of different types of beans and the packaging is damn ugly one! hahaha so now i can give you free samples! but then we hardly see each other these days.

oh and I'm going back to Indo in a week!! YAY so excited! I'm going back for the long weekend!! because my cousin is getting married!! haha yay yay yay so happy!

can you sense the mood changes in this entry? hahahahaa

I'm done with Moonlight Resonance yo.! basically just like what Leep said, Moonlight Resonance is a more pleasant show to watch as compared to Heart of Greed in a way. i guess its because everybody know who the bad guy is quite early. haha. and whenever there's some annoying dispute going on, it's solved pretty soon. anyway I think i'll score really well if my MP is about Moonlight Resonance. HAHA.

Somebody was being annoying at work today. what the hell. anyway there's a new female research officer in the lab. hahaha. now the lab is crowded. okay thats all. oh and jeffrey's coming back 3 days earlier wohoo.

check this out :

http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3159/2807838577_83cbed0126_o.jpg?t=1053139

this is so funny. i know it's quite mean but it's funny lah! and i got it from www.timothytiah.blogspot.com

so there i was spreading this link around cause it's really damn funny la. but someone just have to spoil it for me.haiya whatever la. i dont want to talk about it. i mean i know i was being over sensitive. but this is not the first time ok. aiyah damn annoyed.

Boss is MIA! why like this! i still dont know what my MP title is.. i think I'll just do a summary of what i've been doing all these while.

Anyways. jusr realised that its only 6 weeks before i can see Jeffrey! yay.

guess who wore shorts to Mai's house for Hari Raya visitation? YES ITS ME. please dont ask me why, I'm too embarrassed to explain.. why am I always like this T_T
anyway, glad that i went over because the foods' nice! HAHa such a pig. and her parents and siblings are funny bunch of people. had fun there although the journey home almost killed me cause it took me 1 hour and 40 minutes to reach home. so that was my first Hari Raya visitation and I got green packet too. haha I was damn excited i dont know why.

So watched 10,000 BC for the second time today. i love the show haha. what sia so random.

and the tmr I'll be doing stuff on my own! i mean experiments. I'm quite excited..and i dont even know why. havent started on my sypnosis and stuff. anyways..attended two seminars last week. the first one was really bad 'cause i dont understand what the crap the speaker was talking about.. the second time was much better though 'cause i kinda get what the guy was talking about. It's like Rtechb lecture all over again..but without Jason. haha. and also they provided lunch after that so it was good. hahhaaaa anyway the first seminar reminds me so much of symposium!! the difference is of course I can't skip and go home.haha. damn.

Hmm. I miss Jeffrey so much :( 7 more weeks and he's back. I CAN'T WAIT.

okay I'm going off now 'cause the laptop is making weird noises. it scares me and i dont want it to die on me.

oh oh. i've been having moonlight resonance marathon.haha on episode 22 now! 18 more episodes to go!! wohoo.

I've been sleeping a lot these past few days..because i have nothing to do at work seriously I'm so bored i can die.Some more the computer at work blocks all those fun websites like..crunchyroll and neopets HAHA. oh now.will i get into trouble for saying this.? i dont think so la ho cause I think not a lot of people read my blog.

So things are pretty confusing between Jeffrey and me. i dont like this at all. I miss him so much but why can't I stop fighting with him?? and we fought again last night and i think he kinda forgot that we're supposed to be angry with each other 'cause when i sms-ed him he replied me with a cheerful 'yaaa'. dont ask me how i know that its cheerful or not. Its just because i said so okay.

hmm okay.Goodbye world. i think it's nap time.

I'm bored.
started watching moonlight resonance last night and it's good! I cant wait to go home and watch again hahahaaa

ok time for lunch