i just finished watching Sex and the City (the series i mean) and i'm so sad that it's over!!
i need to watch the movie like now!!

So anyways. holiday still. havent been doing anything and as usual i love it because i can just watch movies all day long. and nobody nags because i wake up at 12 or 1 and sleeps at 4 to 5 almost everyday.

then. still thinking about long distance r/l. its like i always think about it and i feel so so sad and i just dont know who to talk to. so anyway days ago i talked to one of my friend about it. i mean i thought she would understand 'cause she gone through ldr herself. but then..i dont know. i mean yea she gave me her opinion and all that stuff which is great and i appreciate it really. but its like..she doesn't get me you know.. i mean she's so practical and all. and also..i realised that in her r/l, she's the one who always go away..so maybe that's why she just doesnt get me. but then again..i'm dont even know in details about her r/l so i dont know lah.

If everything works out, then he'll go away in about..hmm around 3 weeks. shits.
i mean i'm supposed to be happy for him right? like thats what he really wants and all. but i'm not happy at all. yes i'm selfish and i dont care!! and no one is allowed to judge me.

wohoo.it's been long people.
anyway i know i'm late but oh yay term tests over! wohoo . i'm supposed to be very excited for term break but.er because there so many things to do i can't make myself excited. Anyway i woke up today at arounf 12am to do my TE. hardworking eh!. anyway i think i finished it .. er i'm definately not satisfied with my lab reports but.. i dont even give a damn anymore because 3 reports = 5%? what is this! okay la actually it's only the lit review and methods. but still right. whatever. i dont want to touch it anymore. and there're still more stuff to do. lets see.. there's BPT project that's due next month..TE PBL!! damn after laughing(silently) at aili and caroline for the first half of the semester i finally got it.

anyway term test was...er i dont know how to describe it. haha all i know is i screwed my BPT for sure! so thats about it.

anyway just last week, my cousin came over to Singapore from Penang! hahaha okay her parents came also and they treated us to Jumbo and Waraku. hahaha anyway i really had fun with my cousin! it's been so long since i saw her. i cant even remember when was the last time i met her. anywayss. i went out with her for one day only! so fed up. i didnt know where to bring her you know so i asked her where she want to go, then she was like anywhere except for si be lo( shi ma lu, is it??) and i find it so funny because she was damn pissed cause its like she was here for erm..5 days? and her parents went to si be lo everyday! i mean like seriously?!! what they do there man!! and we went crazy after dinner at Waraku. we practically laughed all the way home. i have no idea why. i guess its because of the sake.haha.

And it's been 1 year since my grandpa passed away. and i couldn't sleep the night before my last paper again just like last year. i miss you tata :(

And! Jeffrey got accepted by UWA for the July intake.
akjsdhalnyufwepo!!kjhasdk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if everything goes well (for him) then i think he'll go to Perth next month for 3 years. 3 friggin' years and he won't come back until he graduates because money is bloody tight. SHITZZZ.
Love is not supposed to be selfish but whatever.!! i dont want him to go away for whatever selfish reasons that i have.
and seriously i dont think long distance relationship will work like honestly let's be practical. i'm not even sure whether i can still love him despite the distance. Sounds very very stupid but come on la.
i know this is bad but i hope that er..he won't go next month because..of..er..whatever la.HAHA wtf i can't even bear to say it because i'm very scared that if i really got what i wished for..then.. it'll be damn bad to him and he'll be the saddest boy alive and i wouldn't want that to happen.
but then again if he can't make it for the july intake, he'll still go for next february intake.

HOW NOW BROWN COW?!!!

and of course lately i cant help but to feel that he doesnt love me as much anymore. maybe its time to break things off. well that sounds stupid. okay lets forget that.
what the hell its like i'm babbling all the way here so dumb.
6years7months. really should i just give up after all these crazy years just because he's going away for 3 solid years? ohno. when i think about it again.3 years is a really really long time. i know i always say time flies but i dont think this applies to the current situation. grrrr.
ahahahha suddenly i feel like laughing.omg. bad sign. i'm going crazy!!

i need to have a very serious talk with Jeffrey.

anyway went to SGH this morning and i wasn't late!! amazing. anyway went to see the skin culture place. quite interesting i think. after that went to eat porridge at Chinatown with..er who ah?! oh Peng Ghee..and Joel..and some more guys. anyway the porridge was not nice and i can see the fungus in the century egg!! gross.HAHAA.

after that took train to Kallang cause i wanted to go to Kallang Leisure park to 'cause my bother want to bowl. anyway we didn't bowl in the end because there's no lane!! waste my time man. some more i got lost in Kallang. hhahaha so weird. anyways. parents + brother going to taiwan in a few hours time. boo. and theres acupuncture today. more boo.