this year is a sucky shithole year. how many times have i like said that already?
you know..actually i dont know what to say. i want to hate and hurt him so bad but i cant do that..
lots of things happened over the weekend. i think i need some time to let the big stuff sink in.

on the other hand, today was a nice day eventhough i skipped chruch this morning and missed a good sermon. but well.. spent the whole day with my siblings and i really had fun.

and.i hate the humid weather these days. so annoying.

first week of school.what can i say about it? the timetable's pretty annoying as usual because the lesson end at 6 for 3 days.then..somewhere along the week i kinda realised that i might be more interested in pharmacy stuff than tissue engineering. and i guess i have to struggle with another CSAS this sem. i guess this sem is the worst 'cause there'll be lots of assignments to do.for CSAS i mean. after all the bad things that happened since the beginning of this year.. i can only hope that i can clear all the subjects this sem so that i don't have to be a year 4 student.

so what else..my grandma is here 'cause she wants to see her great grandchild of course. My nephew's name is Raphael Permana by the way. then..my parents and grandma and some other people are going to Taiwan tmr. then Jeffrey is always busy nowadays that somehow it starts to annoy me. hmm.

you know..i think growing old is a really scary thing. My grandma is healthy, but of course there are some stuff that she can't do now simply because she's old. almost every night she asked me to put on some moisturizing lotion on her back because it's itchy and dry because her oil glands don't work properly anymore. she can even leave her hair alone for 2 weeks (meaning she doesn't wash them for two weeks) 'cause her hair won't be oily anymore.
then there's my mother. she exercise frequently and eat healthyly(?) but her knee and joints are always painful because well..she's old and so her soft bones are like dissappearing(?) shit my spelling sucks.
and then there's my father and his high blood pressure. growing old is a really really scary thing.

oky so now...i got to go.haha! what an abrupt ending.

I'm super bored. really really bored.
and i'm still in a bad mood.
keep on listening to In Christ Alone over and over and over again.
I'm feeling super emo these few days. i can't stand myself.

You're killing me slowly and i'm missing you still. what's wrong with me?

check this out:
www.malepregnancy.com
wtf right. such a weird world.

i can't get over the fact that school is starting really really soon. i hate it so much.
anyways.new maid arrived today. so my mom kinda sack my older maid. she didn't even know that my mom is going to replace her until when her agent came. i feel so bad for her. i mean she's really annoying la 'cause she always like touch my face and all,(with her dirty hand, wet and all..yucks)some more she's really er..slow and she likes to lie! omg. but i still feel damn bad la seriously.at first i don't feel anything you know 'cause she's annoying, but then my sis told me she looked damn pitiful and all omg i feel so bad i almost cry wth!

hm.what else.oh i have a new nepheww!! anyway my cousin-in-law(is there such a thing?)anyway my cousin's wife just gave birth like yesterday morning! wanted to go and see her but obviously i couldn't wake up and my parents just left me at home. i still dont know his name btw.

if anyone of you have the time, check this blog http://korneliuskevinkristian.blogspot.com/.
he's my friend's friend and he posts his own short stories there. and his short stories are good!! really.he's so cool.oh and he's in NTU.younger then me but he's in uni already.wth. i'm such a failure. oh oh.btw. his short stories are in Indon. so..er.. i dont even know how many of my Indon friends are reading my blog.i guess none. but well i guess Mai can check it out yeah hahahaaa.

meeting gen and mich again tmr. oh yay!

i'm in a really really bad mood.i feel so sad i want to cry so badly. i miss you so muchhhhhhhhh :(