i feel..weird. i mean it's great that they're together. but then at the same time i'm pretty upset too.i mean why dont they tell me earlier? i hate to be a lightbulb, like seriously. i mean maybe it's not their fault because she somehow gave me hints not to come.but then i wasn't sensitive enough i guess? but she could have like told me directly right because if they told me i would like totally understood it you know..like i won't disturb them..and when they were like er..doing something..what the hell should i do? i mean its like their time you know.its like i was invading(?) their privacy and that feeling suck like..er..like sucky shit?wth?haha and yeah so i was really upset about that.maybe i was too sensitive? and i think everything will change from now on. like you know it wont be how it used to be. you know..

anyways.yesterday's Revelation class was interesting. better than the first class thats for sure. so yeah.hmm.hmm. nothing else to say 'cause i'm still feeling weird.
btw i'm halfway through Life Art now. Kevin is so handsomeeee.