It's November already!! So fast.
i think my blog is dying..haha like obviously LOL.

anyway my birthday is coming!! you know actually right..just a few months ago i was like really excited about my birthday..because it's my 21st you see.. i was even thinking about having a party. I even created the guests list! crazy or not. anyway just to let you guys know. there won't be any party HAHA. because I am not excited about my birthday anymore. because right.. i think about 2 weeks ago... i decided to slept at 3 a.m. and the next day when i woke up.. there were like eyebags..like dark black ugly eyebags. and i was really shocked because no matter how late i slept last time..my eyebags won't appear. then my sister told me that i'm getting old. :( I've been trying my best to use eye cream since that day onwards. So that's why. actually there are quite a few other reasons lah. like I will be working on that day anyway. and it's such a hassle to organise a party. and If nobody turn up how?? so paiseh.

Okay. I start work late tomorrow! yay!
oh oh by the way, it was our anniversary on the 29th! It's our 8th anni FYI. HAHA. and we didn't do anything because Jeffrey wanted to study because his exam is coming. He's so kiasu.. i cannot tahan. haha we're so not romantic :(

Oh you know I almost died last night. 'cause right last night me and jeffrey went to orchard to meet his cousin's boyfriend. then on the way home in the car, Jeffrey started farting like some man who haven't shit in a decade. it stank so bad and the worse thing is he purposely locked the window so I couldn't open the window!! He tried to kill me with his fart!!! WHY IS MY BOYFRIEND LIKE THIS T______T

and i finally get to meet gen on Friday. haha i really love meeting Gen because it's so easy you know. like we never planned about meeting at all. like all our meetings were only planned maybe on average about 3 hours before the meeting. hahaha so usually its like this. either me or her will ask whether we're free or not and if we're free then we'll just meet. She's so easy going i love it. and she told be something about someone that made me want to cry so bad. She was telling me about it when we were eating at Ajisen (again) and both of us almost cry right there and then. haha a bit funny when i think about it now but what she told me is a really really crazy unexpected sad story. To Gen: PLEASE don't forget to give her a very big hug from me OKAY.

Mcdonald is a freaking cheater bug. you know my sisters, brother, Jason and I went to MCd to eat today. haha all of us ate upsized extra value meal so we got like loads of monopoly stickers and of course all of us got the common stickers like the Marina Bays and Geylangs. hahaha they spelled Geylang as Geyland on the stickers haha so funny. and obviously we never win anything lol I bet they didn't even print the Sentosa Cove sticker lah. so we were taking crap after we eat then i thought it will be funny if i photoshop the Marina Bay sticker and replace the Marina Bay word with Sentosa Cove.
anyway it went like this :

Me : HAHAHA it will be so funny if we replace the Marina Bay with Sentosa Cove and put it up on the internet (Now that i think about it, It's not funny at all)
1st sis : Later you go to jail then you know.
Jason : If they catch you and you go to jail, just give them the out of jail card lah.

HAHAHAHHAHA so funny right.

then there's another one.

2nd sis : Eh Jason when you park you bike, don't put the parking coupons, just put the free parking card.

HAHAHAHHAAA

Then I was thinking if we can use real property to play then we can get $50,000 already 'cause my aunty got a house in Sentosa Cove. Haha I'm so funny!!!

Haih when i re-read everything that i typed i realised that i'm so shameless.

BAH It's almost 3 now!! what the hell!

anyway people, you all have like about 14 days left to think about what present(s) to give me for my birthday HAHAHAHA.

I'm so sick of working. hahaha. like seriously. i have so many things i have to say about my job but i'm not even sure whether i should say it here or not because seriously you won't know who will read you blog.

I'm so tired. that's all i can say. what am I working for??

oh and did i tell you, a few days after i accepted the job, i got a call from TP about the job that i applied for. eh. why am i so suay? if only they called me earlier, I would have accepted the TP job and i bet with all the money that I've earned so far that I will be so much happier. really.

i miss genevieve so much!! i havent been seeing her for quite some time now. i have so much things to tell her about.! gen when can we meet uppppppp :(

this blog post is really useless. anyway, in summary: I HATE WORKING.

had the 'reviewing pay' talk on Monday with the bosses. haha turned out that they offered me a full time job! yay? hahaha I have no idea to be happy or not. I mean of course I am happy 'cause this means that i can get my PR and also there'll be extra pay for OT but I also know that the working hours will be crazy because seriously..when i work part time I work on average 9 hours per day...and i have to work 6 days per week..i think..

anyway i got to sleep now. I am le tired balls.

I can only say that the rejection from berrylite is a blessing in disguise..
Because now i have a part time job that pays me more and the bosses are going to increase my pay next week :) anyway the pay is actually not alot but i enjoy myself during work so it doesn't really matter. Maybe when the time is right I will try to ask them to hire me full time so that i can get my PR.

I've been working for almost a month now (I think?). haha and I have different tasks to do everyday. i can say that i really learn a lottt from this job.haha. and my bosses are damn crazy + funny. Last night my boss asked me to cook dinner wtc? haha like a maid like that!! and she even ask me whether i want to bake cookies or not.haha i get paid for playing in the kitchen.

So yeah nothing really interesting happened these days 'cause I've been working for ard 9 hours every day. LOL. PART TIME JOB AH BOSS.

I miss my bf very much. bf as in best friend. i have not seen her for the longest timeeee and when we decided to meet on Monday (which is usually my day off on weekday) boss just have to ask me to work. What is this! She is having a hard time now and I really really wish i can help her with her problem but there's really nothing I can do to make it better and I'm really sad because I can't help her :(

btw. eventhough i know that the rejection from berrylite is really a blessing in disguise, I can't help but to feel really angry whenever i pass by berrylite! and i cant really avoid it forever because i love Subway hehheh. and Jeffrey always try to make me feel better by saying all the nicest stuff about why berrylite rejects me huhu thank you baby.

Oh and if there's one thing i can learnt from my sister's wedding preparation..(HAHA so sudden)It's that wedding is expensive balls. the banquet and all the stuff..and the houses. seriously so expensive no joke!! so because of that I will start to save money from now for my wedding and my future house. haha. my future husband will be so lucky because I'm so thoughtful. LOL.

and also, I've decided that the only Chanel bag that i like is the bag thats velvety. I mean my cousin owns one bag that is smaller than the Chanel classic but it's velvet instead of leather. so pretty..(hint hint everyone! my birthday is coming HAHA DREAM ON) and I'm itching to buy it haha. esp since my other cousin is going to Paris. haha.

and I know that eventhough the first few words of the last 3 paragraphs that I typed seemed like as if I was going to talk about related things....they're not. Yes I am random like that. hokay i got to sleep.

I wonder when can I stop being so emo. It's like everyone of my friends are moving on with their lives and I can't even get a job at Berrylite. wtf. I've been sending resumes everywhere and none of them replied. Seriously am I really that bad? I think I can only blame myself for not having any working experience (this is fate..this is fate.. My destiny is to be a Tai-Tai). haha. haih not even funny anymore lah damn it.

And there's this thing about us.
I can see us dying. and it's really killing me inside.
And the more i tried to make thing right the more messed up it seems to be
Why must everything be so hard?

I am feeling so damn sad now that i need to look at the beautiful sunflower field picture above to cheer myself up. anyway. I also post the picture because i think my blog is too boring.

anyways. back from Jakarta for almost 2 weeks already. I miss my cousins a lot. and I miss Amazon a lot too. FYI, Amazon is the cheap arcade in Indo. 1 coin=Rp1,250=20cents! Awesome or not! and most of the machines only use 1 coin. like the spot the different game, 1 coin can lasts for about 20 minutes or so! depends on how good you are at the game actually. and there's one machine of spot the different that gives out tickets!oh i love arcade tickets seriously. and i think the best Amazon is at Artha Gading because they have like 3 floors of Amazon. Cool or not!
okay moving on.. I also miss the nice and cheap foods, I miss the time when i can see Jeffrey whenever i like because he is just in the next room, I miss the boring life i have in Indo, I miss helping my uncle fill in forms whenever the Wang Wang, Haitai and PeiTian containers are arriving.

I don't like looking for jobs.. I hate getting rejected. went to Parkway today to meet Gen and Mich!FINALLY! tried looking for part-time job because I'm getting sick of doing nothing at home while looking for more permanent job. HA! i bet some of you are shocked by the fact that I am tired of doing nothing at home!anyways. borders rejected me,Scoops rejected me too. but I have this interview with Berrylite on Monday. I hope i won't forget it because I always forget things lately. I mean like I forgot that I have to meet AIli,Khim and Carol on Monday that's why I have the interview on Monday.

I wished i don't have the damn 3 years bond. I'm regretting it like crazy now. I wished i don't have to grow up. I wished i can stay jobless right now and have the job that i like whenever i can.haha doesn't make sense at all but whatever. I wished i know what I want to do with my life. I wished I can be ambitious like other people.

BTW, I didn't know that Heal the World is Michael Jackson song until he passed away! I AM THE BEST. I mean i know the song, but i dont know the singer and the title. CRAZY OR NOT. that song is probably the most popular song ever. anyway I am irritated by you know..people who are like so affected by MJ's death when theyre not even his fans or anything. ok la not necessary his fans but you get my drift. I was really shocked that he passed away though. let me tell you a story. Jeffrey's dad likes MJ,so when Mj held his one and only concert in Singapore, he went over here to watch and decided that Singapore is a nice place.so after that,he went back to Surabaya and sent all his sons over to Singapore.whee. so because of MJ, i get to meet Jeffrey here. haih.so romantic this story.(WTC?). wait actually idk whether its his one and only concert in Singapore or not..I think i heard it somewhere that it is.

okay lah I am le tired.

Went to a wedding yesterday at Hotel Mulia. we weren't even invited actually. i mean my faher was invited and so he wanted to bring mama and my brother. which means that my sis and I will be left alone at home! so my sis decided that she wanted to go to..to see the decoration and stuff so that she can prepare for her wedding too.haha so in the end my papa said that his friend said that they catered the food for 6000 people and there's no way that 6k people are coming 'cause the hall is not that big anyway. So we went. haha

There were so many sick people! i mean sick as in disgusting people!in the wedding. you know because the wedding in Indo is mostly buffet style..so there's this man who ate longan...and threw the skin and the seeds on the table!! i mean the table is for the sauces you know. the sauces for the people to take! yucks so gross!! and some people wiped their dirty hands on the cloth..as in you know the hall right..they used cloth to decorate it and the wiped their hands there! wtf!

So on the weekends..went to fresh market to my gdma's stall again to eat. i guess that will be the routine for the weekends. and after that went to my aunty's undies bazaar.haha then went to church on Sunday!.woke up so early 'cause the service started at 7am! and i couldnt really understand the sermon.die..my Indon is really deproving. and some smelly woman sat beside me during the service. oh my. why do I always atrract smelly people.. after that went for lunch with my parents and their friends at Ah Yat Abalone rest or smth like that and ate until we were too full (again).

oh oh i bought new glasses and some contacts!finally! and I really like my new frames because the side is so pretty! anyways, going to the mall later to see wedding invitations! yay!