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2009-11-02T02:10:00.002+08:00

It's November already!! So fast.
i think my blog is dying..haha like obviously LOL.

anyway my birthday is coming!! you know actually right..just a few months ago i was like really excited about my birthday..because it's my 21st you see.. i was even thinking about having a party. I even created the guests list! crazy or not. anyway just to let you guys know. there won't be any party HAHA. because I am not excited about my birthday anymore. because right.. i think about 2 weeks ago... i decided to slept at 3 a.m. and the next day when i woke up.. there were like eyebags..like dark black ugly eyebags. and i was really shocked because no matter how late i slept last time..my eyebags won't appear. then my sister told me that i'm getting old. :( I've been trying my best to use eye cream since that day onwards. So that's why. actually there are quite a few other reasons lah. like I will be working on that day anyway. and it's such a hassle to organise a party. and If nobody turn up how?? so paiseh.

Okay. I start work late tomorrow! yay!
oh oh by the way, it was our anniversary on the 29th! It's our 8th anni FYI. HAHA. and we didn't do anything because Jeffrey wanted to study because his exam is coming. He's so kiasu.. i cannot tahan. haha we're so not romantic :(

Oh you know I almost died last night. 'cause right last night me and jeffrey went to orchard to meet his cousin's boyfriend. then on the way home in the car, Jeffrey started farting like some man who haven't shit in a decade. it stank so bad and the worse thing is he purposely locked the window so I couldn't open the window!! He tried to kill me with his fart!!! WHY IS MY BOYFRIEND LIKE THIS T______T

and i finally get to meet gen on Friday. haha i really love meeting Gen because it's so easy you know. like we never planned about meeting at all. like all our meetings were only planned maybe on average about 3 hours before the meeting. hahaha so usually its like this. either me or her will ask whether we're free or not and if we're free then we'll just meet. She's so easy going i love it. and she told be something about someone that made me want to cry so bad. She was telling me about it when we were eating at Ajisen (again) and both of us almost cry right there and then. haha a bit funny when i think about it now but what she told me is a really really crazy unexpected sad story. To Gen: PLEASE don't forget to give her a very big hug from me OKAY.

Mcdonald is a freaking cheater bug. you know my sisters, brother, Jason and I went to MCd to eat today. haha all of us ate upsized extra value meal so we got like loads of monopoly stickers and of course all of us got the common stickers like the Marina Bays and Geylangs. hahaha they spelled Geylang as Geyland on the stickers haha so funny. and obviously we never win anything lol I bet they didn't even print the Sentosa Cove sticker lah. so we were taking crap after we eat then i thought it will be funny if i photoshop the Marina Bay sticker and replace the Marina Bay word with Sentosa Cove.
anyway it went like this :

Me : HAHAHA it will be so funny if we replace the Marina Bay with Sentosa Cove and put it up on the internet (Now that i think about it, It's not funny at all)
1st sis : Later you go to jail then you know.
Jason : If they catch you and you go to jail, just give them the out of jail card lah.

HAHAHAHHAHA so funny right.

then there's another one.

2nd sis : Eh Jason when you park you bike, don't put the parking coupons, just put the free parking card.

HAHAHAHHAAA

Then I was thinking if we can use real property to play then we can get $50,000 already 'cause my aunty got a house in Sentosa Cove. Haha I'm so funny!!!

Haih when i re-read everything that i typed i realised that i'm so shameless.

BAH It's almost 3 now!! what the hell!

anyway people, you all have like about 14 days left to think about what present(s) to give me for my birthday HAHAHAHA.

2009-10-12T12:14:00.002+08:00

I'm so sick of working. hahaha. like seriously. i have so many things i have to say about my job but i'm not even sure whether i should say it here or not because seriously you won't know who will read you blog.

I'm so tired. that's all i can say. what am I working for??

oh and did i tell you, a few days after i accepted the job, i got a call from TP about the job that i applied for. eh. why am i so suay? if only they called me earlier, I would have accepted the TP job and i bet with all the money that I've earned so far that I will be so much happier. really.

i miss genevieve so much!! i havent been seeing her for quite some time now. i have so much things to tell her about.! gen when can we meet uppppppp :(

this blog post is really useless. anyway, in summary: I HATE WORKING.

2009-08-20T23:43:00.002+08:00

had the 'reviewing pay' talk on Monday with the bosses. haha turned out that they offered me a full time job! yay? hahaha I have no idea to be happy or not. I mean of course I am happy 'cause this means that i can get my PR and also there'll be extra pay for OT but I also know that the working hours will be crazy because seriously..when i work part time I work on average 9 hours per day...and i have to work 6 days per week..i think..

anyway i got to sleep now. I am le tired balls.

2009-08-16T01:54:00.004+08:00

I can only say that the rejection from berrylite is a blessing in disguise..
Because now i have a part time job that pays me more and the bosses are going to increase my pay next week :) anyway the pay is actually not alot but i enjoy myself during work so it doesn't really matter. Maybe when the time is right I will try to ask them to hire me full time so that i can get my PR.

I've been working for almost a month now (I think?). haha and I have different tasks to do everyday. i can say that i really learn a lottt from this job.haha. and my bosses are damn crazy + funny. Last night my boss asked me to cook dinner wtc? haha like a maid like that!! and she even ask me whether i want to bake cookies or not.haha i get paid for playing in the kitchen.

So yeah nothing really interesting happened these days 'cause I've been working for ard 9 hours every day. LOL. PART TIME JOB AH BOSS.

I miss my bf very much. bf as in best friend. i have not seen her for the longest timeeee and when we decided to meet on Monday (which is usually my day off on weekday) boss just have to ask me to work. What is this! She is having a hard time now and I really really wish i can help her with her problem but there's really nothing I can do to make it better and I'm really sad because I can't help her :(

btw. eventhough i know that the rejection from berrylite is really a blessing in disguise, I can't help but to feel really angry whenever i pass by berrylite! and i cant really avoid it forever because i love Subway hehheh. and Jeffrey always try to make me feel better by saying all the nicest stuff about why berrylite rejects me huhu thank you baby.

Oh and if there's one thing i can learnt from my sister's wedding preparation..(HAHA so sudden)It's that wedding is expensive balls. the banquet and all the stuff..and the houses. seriously so expensive no joke!! so because of that I will start to save money from now for my wedding and my future house. haha. my future husband will be so lucky because I'm so thoughtful. LOL.

and also, I've decided that the only Chanel bag that i like is the bag thats velvety. I mean my cousin owns one bag that is smaller than the Chanel classic but it's velvet instead of leather. so pretty..(hint hint everyone! my birthday is coming HAHA DREAM ON) and I'm itching to buy it haha. esp since my other cousin is going to Paris. haha.

and I know that eventhough the first few words of the last 3 paragraphs that I typed seemed like as if I was going to talk about related things....they're not. Yes I am random like that. hokay i got to sleep.

Love.

2009-07-19T01:15:00.002+08:00

I wonder when can I stop being so emo. It's like everyone of my friends are moving on with their lives and I can't even get a job at Berrylite. wtf. I've been sending resumes everywhere and none of them replied. Seriously am I really that bad? I think I can only blame myself for not having any working experience (this is fate..this is fate.. My destiny is to be a Tai-Tai). haha. haih not even funny anymore lah damn it.

And there's this thing about us.
I can see us dying. and it's really killing me inside.
And the more i tried to make thing right the more messed up it seems to be
Why must everything be so hard?

2009-07-10T00:52:00.002+08:00

I am feeling so damn sad now that i need to look at the beautiful sunflower field picture above to cheer myself up. anyway. I also post the picture because i think my blog is too boring.

anyways. back from Jakarta for almost 2 weeks already. I miss my cousins a lot. and I miss Amazon a lot too. FYI, Amazon is the cheap arcade in Indo. 1 coin=Rp1,250=20cents! Awesome or not! and most of the machines only use 1 coin. like the spot the different game, 1 coin can lasts for about 20 minutes or so! depends on how good you are at the game actually. and there's one machine of spot the different that gives out tickets!oh i love arcade tickets seriously. and i think the best Amazon is at Artha Gading because they have like 3 floors of Amazon. Cool or not!
okay moving on.. I also miss the nice and cheap foods, I miss the time when i can see Jeffrey whenever i like because he is just in the next room, I miss the boring life i have in Indo, I miss helping my uncle fill in forms whenever the Wang Wang, Haitai and PeiTian containers are arriving.

I don't like looking for jobs.. I hate getting rejected. went to Parkway today to meet Gen and Mich!FINALLY! tried looking for part-time job because I'm getting sick of doing nothing at home while looking for more permanent job. HA! i bet some of you are shocked by the fact that I am tired of doing nothing at home!anyways. borders rejected me,Scoops rejected me too. but I have this interview with Berrylite on Monday. I hope i won't forget it because I always forget things lately. I mean like I forgot that I have to meet AIli,Khim and Carol on Monday that's why I have the interview on Monday.

I wished i don't have the damn 3 years bond. I'm regretting it like crazy now. I wished i don't have to grow up. I wished i can stay jobless right now and have the job that i like whenever i can.haha doesn't make sense at all but whatever. I wished i know what I want to do with my life. I wished I can be ambitious like other people.

BTW, I didn't know that Heal the World is Michael Jackson song until he passed away! I AM THE BEST. I mean i know the song, but i dont know the singer and the title. CRAZY OR NOT. that song is probably the most popular song ever. anyway I am irritated by you know..people who are like so affected by MJ's death when theyre not even his fans or anything. ok la not necessary his fans but you get my drift. I was really shocked that he passed away though. let me tell you a story. Jeffrey's dad likes MJ,so when Mj held his one and only concert in Singapore, he went over here to watch and decided that Singapore is a nice place.so after that,he went back to Surabaya and sent all his sons over to Singapore.whee. so because of MJ, i get to meet Jeffrey here. haih.so romantic this story.(WTC?). wait actually idk whether its his one and only concert in Singapore or not..I think i heard it somewhere that it is.

okay lah I am le tired.

2009-06-08T12:31:00.002+08:00

Went to a wedding yesterday at Hotel Mulia. we weren't even invited actually. i mean my faher was invited and so he wanted to bring mama and my brother. which means that my sis and I will be left alone at home! so my sis decided that she wanted to go to..to see the decoration and stuff so that she can prepare for her wedding too.haha so in the end my papa said that his friend said that they catered the food for 6000 people and there's no way that 6k people are coming 'cause the hall is not that big anyway. So we went. haha

There were so many sick people! i mean sick as in disgusting people!in the wedding. you know because the wedding in Indo is mostly buffet style..so there's this man who ate longan...and threw the skin and the seeds on the table!! i mean the table is for the sauces you know. the sauces for the people to take! yucks so gross!! and some people wiped their dirty hands on the cloth..as in you know the hall right..they used cloth to decorate it and the wiped their hands there! wtf!

So on the weekends..went to fresh market to my gdma's stall again to eat. i guess that will be the routine for the weekends. and after that went to my aunty's undies bazaar.haha then went to church on Sunday!.woke up so early 'cause the service started at 7am! and i couldnt really understand the sermon.die..my Indon is really deproving. and some smelly woman sat beside me during the service. oh my. why do I always atrract smelly people.. after that went for lunch with my parents and their friends at Ah Yat Abalone rest or smth like that and ate until we were too full (again).

oh oh i bought new glasses and some contacts!finally! and I really like my new frames because the side is so pretty! anyways, going to the mall later to see wedding invitations! yay!

2009-06-05T09:53:00.002+08:00

the containers of wang2 just arrived yesterday. LOL. and I worked yesterday! i mean of course i come to work everyday but most of the days i was just rotting. but yesterday!! it was fun because i get to move the wang2 to the store room. HAHAHA doesnt sound fun at all but it's really fun!

then, my brother and mama came last night! Juan is taller than the last time i saw him! He'll be taller than me in no time :(

and gym's still sucky.yucks. i have no motivation to go there at all! the people are just too...weird...how like this??!?!

oh then the other day, i finally bought my spongebob ice cream but oh man the ice cream didnt even look like spongebob at all can!!i feel so damn cheated!! bloody hell! wasted 50cents!!

okay thats all.my life is too boring.

The one with the awesome cinema

2009-05-31T11:03:00.002+08:00

i watched Angels&Demons again last night for the second time!haha. this is because my sister and cousins havent watch it yet okay. but i dont mind because the movie is still damn awesome. and the other reason is because the ticket is dirt cheap. okay may not dirt..but still cheap. the ticket's only Rp35,000 for the weekend and Rp25,000 for the weekdays. and we're not talking about the cinema like 'princess' cinema in bedok here okay! it's like the cathay and maybe it's even better because sometime the seat at the cathay smells funny..(but i cant judge it by the seat because the mall is pretty new). anyway i just realise that Rp35,000 = $5! what the hell! so cheap! okay. so the movie is still great!! go and watch it!

had a great time with my cousins last night. ate sushi at a place called sushi groove.not so great but whatever. i think the standard of sushi in Indo is low.ahaha i mean of course there are nice sushi but theyre damn expensive la. and after sushi we ate cakes at secret recipe. DIE LA I TELL YOU. impossible to lose weight here.

and guess what am i going to do now?
okay.I'm going to bathe and go for steamboat lunch.hahaha! yay.

oh and i just realised when i arrived here that this is the first time i'll be staying here for so long!
and also, jeffrey said he's coming over for a week sometime in June!! i hope he's really coming!

The one with the weird gym

2009-05-30T16:47:00.007+08:00

alright so yesterday evening I went to the gym here and it was so awful!! ahahha like okay so it's a small gym...with one classroom only.haha how pathetic is that? and they only have 4 classes a day. or 3 sometimes. other than that they dont have air-con.LOL and thats not even the worse thing. the worse thing is they dont seem to have a dress code whatsoever.so when we were attending the aerobic class (hahaha ya aerobic.laugh all you want) there was a lady who wore denim skirt to work out. wth?! then there's this girl who wore denim shorts. wth?? then there's another woman who wore Crocs. wth?! then finally..there's this girl who wore pyjamas shorts!!! WTH!!??
whats with these people?! they are all so weird..
then there were 2 women who brought their children with them okay! do when we were doing the movements the children will run around us..oh my.. i felt like scolding them really.. this makes me miss True Fitness so much!!

and after gym..my uncle fetch us and we went to this place called Muara Karang in search of nice siomay.haha and we ate 'till we're too full.!! there's no use in going to the gym if we keep on eating like this I tell you!

Anyway. There's this Indon movie called 'Laskar Pelangi'. Lots of people said that it's a very nice movie.it's been out for like half a year now and i just watched it last night haha. It was such a sad movie..and i also borrowed the novel from my cousin and shit man i'm having a hard time reading it!! i guess my Indon is deproving. so sad :(

oh guess what. my sister and I ate too much again for lunch today. how like this!there're just too many nice and cheap foods here! so right. i went to the bone cracker guy again this morning and waited for 2 hours for my turn. wtcrap.

then i went to see my godmom's drink stall in some market/food court.. walked around there and bought a Rp25,000 tank top and found Spongebob Squarepants shaped ice cream!!!!! was so excited but didn't buy it in the end because i was still too full from lunch!! sad.

that's pretty much it and i still havent do anything during work! but 2 containers of wang2 will come in on Monday and that means it will be a busy busy week!! so excited! okay I'm going to shit and go to the mall soon!

The one with the bone cracker guy

2009-05-28T23:31:00.004+08:00

whee hello people! i'm in indo now and i'm already missing Singapore. this is because the internet here is so damn slow. i cant even open my facebook from just now!! so angry! and there's no Jeffrey here huhu :(

but anyway. i started 'work' today and it was so boring. because there are no stock in the store room so there's not much to do. so for today my sister and I only learnt about the work flow of the company and some random and basic stuff. anybody can suggest to me what food can we import into Indo? haha. alright so besides that. my dad brought us to this guy..some bone guy he was crazy man because he will crack your bones! in a scary way. so one time he ask me to lie on the bed thingy and he took some 'belt' thingy and wrap it under my chin area..then he freaking pulled the belt until i sit up! can you imagine? it sounds and looks damn scary but you know the spine and neck area will cracked and it sounded so nice hahaha am I sick or what?!?!

and i had some chicken cordon blue (is there even such a thing?) and some ketoprak and chicken satay! they were all so nice. oh and also. i signed up for gym hahha. they only have 4 classes a day.so lousy but its okay la cos its a small gym and it's near my house too. okay what else. i guess thats all. have been reading some comics that we bought long long time ago and only now that we realised that actually the story is quite stupid. and we used to think that they were all so nice. hahaha so funny!

oh then i went for foot reflexology!oh yeay. Rp48k for 1 and a half hour.haha so i think its about $6. and you know i keep on farting nowadays and its so annoying 'cause sometime during the massage i want to fart mah.haha but obviouly i cant la so paiseh. i had to hold them back. so horrible. HAHA. okay that's al! i want to eat baskin robbins!

oh my papa is going to aceh tmr!die what will we eat for dinner tmr?!?! nobody can drive us anynwhere..unless we ask the driver to work overtime.haha.

and because i am so in love with Friends, i'll try to start my post title with 'The One' from now on.

edit : HOW COME MY THERE'S NO TITLE ON MY BLOG POST? THIS SKIN SUCKS. CAROLINE! HELP!

2009-05-27T01:53:00.002+08:00

I'm going back to Indo soon!! whee~ okay actually i'm not that excited... because i will miss Jeffrey so much... haha LOL i'm so clingy it's annoying.
anyway I seriously think that i won't learn much about working with my dad because I bet i'll just slack in Indo la. anyway i'm so excited because we'll be going to Jogja(?? i dont know how to spell) and we'll drive up/down to Bali!
anyways. BBq with the class was really nice. eventhough not a lot of poeple went but oh wells. i think i will miss my classmates a lot. HAHAHA arent you shocked that i actually wrote that??! bleah.

So...my eldest sister is getting married and my youngest sister got herself a boyfriend.. i have no comment regarding the later. as for my sister's wedding... I'm so excited!! because it will be the first wedding in my family haha obviously. and my parents are like excited too i guess..

okay i'm off to bed. and guess what.. i havent even pack my clothes and stuff... guess that shows how excited I am to go back huh.

2009-04-30T23:08:00.003+08:00

I've been going to the gym for almost 3 weeks now and i havent lose any weight. how stubborn can my fats get?? they're even more stubborn than Aili. HAHA lol. jk jk .

anyway i'm so sad because my ipod is spoilt!! it's not even a month since i got it and it's already spoilt. i think jeffrey shouldnt give me any electronic products. it's like the first mp3 player that i got from him cant be detected by any computer and now the ipod is spoilt! i miss it so much.. haha lol i sound really crazy.

okay so..i'll be going back to Indo next month to work for my papa. not to work la actually hahaha to learn okay. i'll be an intern again haha but this time hmm.. i will be paid in terms of really good food in Indo and other great stuff like shopping and massages..and manicures....haha.i think i'll be staying there 'till...i dont know when.. huhuhu.

I miss j&k+8!!!

2009-04-09T20:43:00.002+08:00

whoa it's been more than a month. hahhaa lol

anyways, highlights of the month :
- Jon and Kate Plus 8 new season is starting in May!!! YAY. i miss them so much HAHA LOL
- I went for my first election today!!

woke up early in the morning to go to embassy for the election because my father is flying off to Taiwan in the afternoon. So many people were there but didnt really have to queue that long. it was really hot though. and oh i screwed up the voting shit because I circled the number instead of ticking it. can you believe it?? the man already told me that i have to tick it before I went into the cubicle! Wth is wrong with me? so that means that my vote might not be counted and so i woke up early for NOTHING. Whee.

2009-02-28T22:12:00.002+08:00

okay i'm supposed to talk about the Nepal trip with my papa today.
i really really hope that he'll let me go... i want to go there so so badly.......
anyways yesterday i went to the Nepal trip meeting and i found out that all the people that will be going are all doctors and med students. haha wth.. what is this.. okay la not all.. but maybe around..80-90% sadly theyre all old and married. HAHA.
anyway i came home early today so that i can talk to my papa but they're not home yet what is this man..
okay i feel so lost without my hard disk.....

2009-02-18T22:11:00.002+08:00

Hello world. it's been long.
okay I'm doing nothing at home every single day.. and i'm enjoying it seriously i love it lah. so for now i still dont know what am i going to do with my life so please stop asking la damn it. i get really annoyed when people start asking me questions man.
So that's all. hahaha hmm. actually i was thinking of finding ajob in March.. 'cause initially i was thinking of going to Nepal for 5 days.. for a mission trip.. but for that i need to borrow money from my parents... and i havent really asked them yet and time is running out. haha its like if i really go then that means i'll have a debt even before i started working.. le sigh.
So now i'm re-thinking whether i should go or not because my mom reminded me that my student pass is expiring. damn. and so i have to get a job if not i'll be an illegal immigrant. oh wells. why can't you just let me be PR Singapore?? why?? I've been living here for almost 8 years and that's like almost half of my life!!
haih. I'm so lazy to work...and i dont want to study again...for now.. I just want to stay at home and do nothing.. yeah i'm a true blue slacker man. haih can i just get married now...................... JEFFREY PLEASE DO SOMETHING.
so for valentine's . haha suddenly jump to valentine's day what the hell we did nothing because we're just not romantic like that. jeffrey made chocolate truffles that are so huge and bitter lols. i'm not complaining though!!!and guess what!!! i wanted to made him the same thing initially!! but i was like argh so lazy..so i didnt make anything for him hahaa.
okay whatever i'm lazy to blog. byebye!. oh and everyone please watch jon and kate plus 8 if you have travel&living channel!!!

2009-01-29T02:27:00.002+08:00

hey ho people of the world. i'm enjoying myself in Indo. i really love it here. i hope i can just stay here without having to think so much about the reports that i have to submit in..a few days. hokay i'm so so sleepy.
anyway Indo is such a cool place. haha like it's quite dumb cause there are like loads of malls here.like seriously. and there's this mall called FX..it has like 7 storeys and there is a slide that goes down from the 7th floor to the ground floor!! how cool is that.but we got to pay to slide down. it costs like 10$ haha wth. i havent seen it yet eventhough i want to see it so badly. everybody's going there tmr to shop but i'm not going 'cause i'm going out with my friends yo.
bah. then apparently there's this huge mall that has 2 storeys of F21, just like the US store (according to my cousin haHA LOL) and i think i'm going there on friday yay.
oh wells. this year's Chinese New Year is kinda sucky. like the atmosphere was so diff from last year and it sucks like hell. hahah lol. ok not funny. but angpao money goes up a lil' bit. haha not important at all actually. but anyway the cool thing that happened on chinese new year is that i got to see the sun eclipse real clearly from the window in my parents' room and I saw it with my whole family (minus my grandma 'cause she was sleeping) haha and it was so awesomee.
oh other than that the arcade here is real cool 'cause it's damn cheap. its like 1 coin is only <20cents HAHA lol. and my sis and I keep on playing the spot the diff game and one coin can last for about 10-15 minutes. not a bad deal.
then went to eat at this restaurant. really nice food. there's like crabs, huge prawns, sotongs and such. 20 of us ate there an it only cost us like around $200.haha LOLS.
okay whatever i'm going to continue when I'm back in singapore. having bad toothache now bloody hell. i think i have cavities la damn it. I'm so sleepy now and i'm missing JEfrey so so so badly. i think he's the only reason why i want to go back to Singapore.

2009-01-23T18:22:00.001+08:00

was really happy 'cause SIP ends today. but omg horrible thing happened and i am not happy anymore and i just want to cry so bad and my stomach is so painful... i think i need to shit.

2009-01-20T12:02:00.002+08:00

i've been so stressed out about my report. i want to puke whenever i think about it. i have to finish it by thursday so that khartik and boss can check it out or something like that.

i have so many things to do.and ireally hate it. i have to take leave from work tmr so that i can go to school and apply for leave. HAHAHA sounds funny eh. i mean i have to take leave for the 30th because i'll be home!in indo i mean so that means i cant go to school on that day. actually i dont really want to apply for LOA because i'm just damn lazy la. then i'm not even sure whether they'll approve it or not. but stupid me consulted Dr Quek about it and of course he told me that i have to have LOA to skip! so now i have to go and apply. I'm pretty sure that there wont be time to approve everything cause i'm going home on the 24th! but well whatever. at least i get to skip work for a day i guess..or half a day..
so yeah. other than the damn report i have to prepare slides for the presentation on friday because Heng la damn annoying. sabo us like that.

okay whatever lets talk about more fun stuff. oh yeah so i'll be going back on the 24th for chinese new year yaaaayy. i'm quite excited because i'll be going back for 1 week yo!! actually it's very short lol but compared to the past trips it's considered quite long already.. but then again i think this year's Chinese new year will be sucky because stupidd rich people are so stupid and selfish and annoying and i hate them! anyway the reunion dinner will be vegeterian. oh my God i'm deeply saddened by that. honestly. i always fell that reunion dinner is the best part of chinese new year because that's the time i can hang out with all my cousins and eat lots of meat and superb desserts. but this year not all the families will be joining us and i am really really sad. and on top of that...the vegetarian meals..oh man enough said. there's no need to elaborate more on that. hahaaa i just realised at the beginning of the paragraph i said that i'm going to talk about fun stuff.hahaha what the hell. this is not fun!

okay okay lets talk about real fun stuff. alright so since i'm going back for a week..that means that i can go for massage every day. okay maybe not everyday but most of the days!! hoho yay yay. then i hope that i can go for manicure too. and all that stuff. i hope by then i have finished all my report and shit so that i can enjoy my stay in Indo. it will be much better if Jeffrey agreed to go back to indo with me of course but obviously he didnt want to because of various reasons.

oh well. i've been spending lots of time with Jeffrey and I'm so glad to say that we hardly argue these days. i find it abit queer though..that we're not arguing and stuff...i'm so weird.but it really feels nice to have him here. i wished he didnt have to go overseas to study.

by the way i really really hate the literature review part of the report.

oh and i'm so so addicted to jon and kate plus 8!! its about this couple who have a pair of twins and sextuplets! and the children are so damn cute!! like really really super cute. hahaha. and i keep on thinking about going home to watch it while i'm at work..and i'm always excited by the thought of going back to watch it. i'm such a freak.

okay bye bye!

2009-01-07T09:38:00.002+08:00

hello people of the world!
haha you knoe a few years ago i drank some alcoholic drinks i forgot what was it but anyway the night after i drank it my whole back itched so badly and it was like real red with so many..bumpy thing..you know the kind of bump on your skin like as if you ahve lots and lots of mosquito bites? yeah that kind. and it was so itchy! and so all these while i thought that i'm kinda alergic to alcoholic drinks but not that bad cos i guess when i drink a little my back won't itch or whatever. so yesterday i met my friends!!!!!!like finally after idk how many years and we went for a drink. omg that's not a very wise move because i am itching like crazy now!!!! like itching all over! even my armpit is itchy!! rarwwwwwwwwwww. i feel like going home...but i dont want to go to the doctor.

anyway met up with hanna,julie and charm yesterdayy i missed them so muchhh.!! finally we met up after so freaking long! hello people we should do this again very soon! please don't let hanna organise it because she won't so it!

okay got to go and prepare stuff for PCR! itchyyyyyy

2009-01-01T21:27:00.002+08:00

it's a new year! i'm glad that 2008 is over because so many horrible things happened in 2008. in fact, the most horrible thing that even happened in my life happened in 2008 so well.. i can only say that i really really hope that 2009 will be a good year. alright it doesn't have to be a good year..just a better year from 2008 will do.

so i spent the last night of 2008 with my family. didn't go anywhere this year because papa was too tired after driving the whole day from penang.. so we just watched some tv and waiting for 2008 to be over and after that we went to do our own stuff haha. anyway i have to say the channel 5 show sucks like hell. whats with fiona xie singing hot and cold and tay ping hui singing I'm yours? and they were lip singing (?) it's like so obvious! anyway about a minute before 12 o'clock...my father was like !!i have to pee first! i have to expel my 2008's pee! hahah what the freak.

anyway looks like they had fun in penang. i'm so jealoussssss!! and they saw someone.... this guy that i liked when i was in penang... hahah he still remembers me! LOL. and they keep on talking about the lok lok, laksa and kway tiao that they ate there..... i really really miss Penang's food :( and hearing them talking about Penang makes me remember about the stupid things that happened in Penang. Hahahaha.

okay whatever. there's work tomorrow and my SIP report reached 1600 words already! not bad not bad. lol. and by the way i found out that the report is like 30%! what the freak! happy new year everyone :D

2008-12-29T12:46:00.002+08:00

just realised that there're actually 4 weeeks left of SIP instead of 5!! die.
havent started on any of the reports yet and just thinking about them make me want to cry already.see the hormones are acting up. anyway. the trip to the lab yesterday turned out to be useless because the cells are being such bitches. they are not growing properly again! why oh why oh why. after that i went over to Jeffrey's and went to orchard with his family. haha i spent so much time with them lately that i think my Javanese listening skill is improving greatly!

anyway.living alone sucks. i mean not alone but ah you know what i mean. it's like i dread going to an empty home you know. and it's only been 2 days. haha lol. i wonder how can Leep do it for 3 years. i can just die i tell you. and last night i started watching The Simple Life at 12!!! really bad decision because obviously once i started i couldn't stop! haha i really really really love that show. i almost forget how funny that show is. so because of that i slept at 3. actually maybe not 3 because i couldn't sleep. it feels so weird to sleep alone at night without my sister's snoring and noisy breathing and everything haha i'm such a weirdo.

and so i feel really happy because i updated my MP logbook and SIP logbook! oh yay! i'm going to try doing my SIP report now. so sian. the SIP report is really useless la. rarww.

hehehehe I'm going to see Jeffrey again later. hohohoho!

2008-12-28T14:38:00.002+08:00

it's sunday and i'm in the lab :( haha actually i dont really mind coming to work since nobody is at home anyway.

so yes on thursday or friday my family finally decided that they're going to penang on saturday. haha damn impromptu la as usual! then i tried to ask for leave for monday to wednesday but obviously it's unsuccessful. HAHA so now i'm alone at home! actually not alone la 'cause there are my maids. BAH. initially i don't want to follow them to Penang you know..'cause i have something to do at work la and there's only about 5 weeks left of internship!!! and i was quite pissed 'cause my father kept on asking me to take leave and all! it's like why can't he understand haha then on friday i suddenly feel like following them because it's been so long since we have family trip and all that!! haha shit la why am i like this! and i was so sad when they left i almost cried.haha wth i'm so hormonal nowadays it's getting irritating lol.

haha and i think my father feels guilty for leaving me behind (i also dont know why because i'm the one who refuse to go initially) haha lol. so before he go on saturday morning he said we'll go on holiday next year okay. let's go Europe. then i was like no i want to go to Egypt..then he's like okay! Egypt it is! HAHA lol if that's what i get for staying alone for a few days i don't mind being home alone longer. haha. but obviously we won't go next year.

I'm so sleepy...i just booked the hood for tmr. hahaa i'm so kiasuu

2008-12-25T00:06:00.002+08:00

my Christmas eve started with a dream about me breaking up with Jeffrey.it's like we're having our usual arguments and we broke up. then he met his ex-gf and got back together with her and he told me he's happy with her. what the hell?? whatever. hahahahaha so dumb.

so today was okay. got a half day in the end because i asked boss. hahaha i mean it's like all the people in the other labs go home already you know! then heng and karthik don't even care about the half day thingy because they have stuff to do anyway so i was like what the hell! so i go ahead and asked boss about it. hahaha die la i bet he thinks that i'm the laziest intern he ever got (hoho might be true) but i just think that it's really stupid to be hanging around in the lab with nothing to do and all.

so dinner was okay.! i mean today's dinner is supposed to be..er i dont know..but well.. it's like my family and Jeffrey's family first meeting hahahahahha so lameee! and honestly i was kinda nervous because well..idk la! but i guess it turns out to be okay. his grandma is so funny. ahahaa.

so anyway there's this stupid thing that happened yest. its like Jeffrey came over with his sister to swim. but then the sister didn't want to swim in the end because she's lazy. and because it's damn cold i also didn't want to swim. so in the end the two of us (his sister and me) wait at the side of the pool for him. and it was real awkward because i never talk to her before and all that. so anyway... after waiting for idk how long.. i wanted to fart HAHA. then i thought it will be okay because we were in the open air and it was real windy so even if it smells the smell will go away real quick. and somehow i assumed that my fart will be the silent fart. HAHAHAHA omg so i farted and the fart sound came out!! bloody hell.hahahah then after i hear my own fart i started laughing! it's like i couldn't stop so i pretended to read some funny sms la so that his sister won't think that i'm crazy or smth! then i still couldn't stop laughing after that! so i just ran to the pool side and tell jeffrey what happened. HAHAHA lol. why am i like this!!! T__T HHAHHAHAHA it's still funny when i think about it.

alright i guess that's it. i should stop embarrassing myself.

have a blessed Christmas everyone!

2008-12-23T17:50:00.000+08:00

heng just came back into the lab just now and he saw me. so after he saw me he was like 'ehhh!! it's almost 6 o'clock leh!!' hahaah bloody hell. why must he be so shocked that I'm staying back! i mean i admit la i'm always the first one who go out of the lab once it's 5 o'clock. haha but today i have no choice mah..

2008-12-23T17:14:00.002+08:00

BAH. waiting for the 8 hours incubation to be over. I'm so bored and sleepy and hungry! :( actually i can go back sooner..but one of the lab people steal my fumehood slot!! i purposely booked the hood yesterday (damn kiasu lol) then i even woke up early so that i can reach early today!! but when i arrived she was already using! rawwr. angry!! but then she apologized after that. so it's okay la..i guess... oh well.
i feel so shallow for complaining about all these really stupid stuff while my friend is going through such a hard time. i suck.

anyway. I'm wondering why people are making such a big fuss about Christmas. I'm talking about those people who proudly claim that they're atheist la or anti-Christ or whatever shit lah then come Christmas and they suddenly organise and celebrate Christmas. i mean what the crap? are they confused about their belief or are they just plain retarted?

why am i so angry? HAHA lol.

2008-12-17T18:33:00.003+08:00

work's been really boring this week. do nothing since monday and i hate it. can anyone give me some work??
anyway work is a mess. found out last week that we've been looking at the wrong bands all these while. so this simply means that all the cells that i thought showed positive results are well... not positive at all. 6 weeks of internship left and this happened. and so now i only have 3(out of 70 odd clones) clones that are probably transfected successfully but they're growing real slowly.then today i found out (okay karthik did) that there's something wrong with the DMEM. i dont know whats wrong but well i was the one who prepared it. wth!! I'm so pissed! it's like everything's going wrong.

everybody's coming back on Friday.! hope that they bring lots of nice stuff.lol.

2008-12-11T13:04:00.002+08:00

my 2 sisters are going back to Indo today!! in 1 hour and 40 minutes time to be exact! why like this. and guess when did they decide to go? yesterday ok! siao leh they all. i mean they've been wanting to go back but they still cant decide when to go..then suddenly yesterday they bought the tickets for today.! bah unfair! i also want to go back :(

i feel like shitting now.hahhaaaa.

2008-12-08T00:14:00.002+08:00

From:Gracecia Lie
To:Juan Lie

Juan lie! why you never call nowadays! i miss you so much leh boy!
so how are you there! how's water boom? or water bomb? hahaha got sunburnt or not?
and hows your story book reading? have you finish the book? the one that you bought at Borders?
remember to read everything okay! don't just play everyday and leave the book alone!
anyway ci bobing forget to go to your school to buy books on the 26th haha! so in the end she went on the 27th. and then the aunty who sells the book thought that ci bobing is going to primary 5!! hahaha so stupid right.
anyway okay that's all. you better reply my email! long long one okay! not just one sentence! if not i'm going to smack you when you come back! byebye!

From:Juan Lie
To:Gracecia Lie

I got but you are always out or something.Its Waterbom By the way.......Yes I got sunburnt its so freaking pain like duh!!!Nah I Rarely Read Except in the toilet but i read like 50 pages for each or he books.HAHAHAHAHA But ci bobang is so tall?!? I Took all the rides in waterbom except one!!! the last time i rode it and when i got out of the ride my throat feels like burning to ashes or something....I rode one of the fastest rides in the world! Its like going 35 Degrees down at the speed of velocity......Before i rode that ride i was up there thinking how fast it was but actually it was damn fun i rode it 2 more times and i wanted to ride it again but ko edbert said his leg very pain.Then,i rode the most famous ride in waterbom THE''HAIRPIN''The last time i did not dare to ride it but after riding the ularlah in wild wild wet,I realised its time i gave it a shot...IT WAS AWESOME!!!!!!It was so freaking fast like not even 20 seconds i found my pants filled with water and i was in the pool....Ci Debby was so scared!!!!she didnt even dared to ride to baby rides...when we were riding the superman(actual name was whizzard i named it superman because we had to put a mat under us and go down the slide one at a time.... there were two slides so we raced me and ko edbert went first(my favourite ride from last time)I was first,the ci denna and debby we were like waiting at quite a distance..and we heard guess what? ci debby screaming at the top of her lungs!!!!!!Ko edbert thought it was ci denna hahahaha.She screamed like that on every slide she rode on.....It was fun at waterbom and better than before...Then we(ko edbert ci denna and debby)called KFC and we ate KFC.The KFC in indo was salty....me likey then few days after waterbom, I ate chicken steak at the gym mama went to last time.I watch journey to the center on the earth and city of amber and going to watch bolt later........Fulin was so cute and ci kenny went to semaggi to have some bone cracking session cause she has the same problem as you!!!!!her spine was out of shape or something.HAHA see you in singapore and come back early

HAHA so thats the email from my brother. speed of velocity??? what the hell! haahaha i miss juan so badlyyyyy :(

on the brighter note, it's holiday tmr! oh yay! just realised that there's only about 6 weeks left of internship! i have to start with my reports and stuff.especially since i want to go back to Indo for Chinese New Year. haih. still very sad because of my cells!! why must they do this to me! grow them with much love also no use :

2008-12-04T15:40:00.002+08:00

haih. i'm so bored until i want to cryyy

anyway met up with gen at PW for Ajisen(AGAIN) yesterday!!whats new lah! i keep on saying that we should try out something new but we always end up at ajisen again. whatv. so after dinner and all we went to the nursing room so that we can camwhore for a bit then while she was showing me the picture that we took I said something like 'eew i look like satan here!' then gen got so freaked out. she was like what?? what?? then she ran out of the nursing room then because i was like what the hell? i just ran out with her. hahaha then after a while we ran back in to the nursing room and took our bags and stuff and ran out again.haha hillarious.

found out just one minute ago that the cells that i froze are dead! and there are no spare cells left. and that cells give the greatest result i have so far T__________T I'm so sad. sigh sigh sigh

and i'm so sleepy so i just slept on my table just now and i almost fall off the table!i mean my head la okay very hard to explain here but it was very embarrassing. Thank God everybody were out in the lab doing stuff. there was Ain though. dont know whether she saw me or not. i hope not.

then the other day while i was watching Gilmore Girls, Jeffrey started playing with my hair and talking nonsense. so iw as ignoring him because he scolded me before that because he was pissed that he can't kill the monster in his games!! what is this! what kind of boyfriend is this! then so after playing with my hair for a while..he suddenly say !!!!how come you have dandruffs! how come it took him so long to realise that. my hair was okay until Head n shoulder starts to be a bitch and make my hair oily okay! :(

anywayz.going to catch Bolt at Lido later. and eat pepper lunch with sister. hhohoho

2008-12-02T22:58:00.003+08:00

i really don't like one of my _______ right now.
i know it's wrong but i can't help it! grrrrrrrrrr.

anyway. i just finished Desperate Housewives season 4!
this season is damn exciting! especially during the tornado part!! oh man!
and the funniest part is in the last episode when Gabby was asking Carlos to help her and he opened the closet(or whatever) and shouts help! HAHA what the hell!! so funny!

met up with gen just now and so because of that I'm a very happy girl todayyyyyy :D

2008-11-30T12:30:00.002+08:00

I'm so hungry and there's no food at home! nobody bothers to do some grocery shopping.hmm maybe i'll do it tonight. bahh. have been spending time with Jeffrey every dayyyy and it feels so good. i think i could do this foreverr.

anyway went to orchard on Friday to walk around and look for watches. why is Tissot so hard to find here! rawrr then met a few people there! bah so embarrassing because i was so sweaty and gross looking!! why must i meet people on the street when i look so shitty!bah! met Stefanie and she's still as tall as ever. haha then met Lia who's my tuition mate when i just got here! she's still as pretty as ever.. and she looks like a doll! reallyy!i was so pissed (at my gross-ness) after bumping into people that i told Jeffrey i want to go home straight away. he asked my why and i told him i dont want to bump into people anymore because i look so gross and sweaty. and he told me why? you look okay to me :) hoho thank you my boy. Thankfully i didnt see anybody else for the rest of the night.

then went to bird park on Saturday morning! was damn tiring seriously. and i never bring any water. how stupid can i get seriously. and the stuff there are so expensive. spent $4 on a glass of pepsi because i was really desperate for water and that's the cheapest one available. Bongo Burger sucks! and now my whole body is aching :( and after that went to Sim Lim and bought a hard disk FINALLY! i can store all my movies there yay!

and today! supposed to go to Queen of Peace with Jeffrey but obviously we overslept! and so maybe we're going for the 6 o'clock mass.

anyway i've been trying to convince JEfferson to cut his hair. its really ugly beyond words. really i hate it so so much. i even have to lie to him that if he cut his hair he will look slimmer. yes my dear friends. i have a boyfriend who is vainer than me. how can this be! ever since he came back from Perth all he can ask me is 'do i look fat?'. honestly i'm starting to get annoyed by his vainess. BAH.

oh and by the way. went out with some people few days/weeks ago and i was trying so hard to make some jokes and all because i felt really uncomfortable hanging out with them so yeah. just want to say this i know it's very out of point and all but whatever!

and it was gen's birthday on friday and i still dont know what to get her!!

okay. there's work tmr! :( i'm so lazy! and angry because somebody is not picking up my call rawrwarwrawrawraaaawwrrrrr.

2008-11-27T12:35:00.003+08:00

I've been eating corn flakes for lunch for a few days now. i don't think i can continue any longer.
because mama is back in Indo, nobody cooks for me :( realised i've been taking those packed lunch for granted because I'm suffering now! I'm so lazy to go out and search for food! and i have to spend money for lunch now..unless i continue with my corn flakes lunch. bah. i feel so broke. why am I always so broke? must be because everybody's birthdays are in November!! Why oh why.

anyway. i think i kinda like working. hahaa. i mean compared to school. cause you see.. during intership right, after i reached home i dont have to do anything. i just have to slack my night away and it feels so good cause i dont have to worry about homeworks or tests (not that i do my tutorials religiously during school time but you get what i mean). of course there're reports and MP logbook to do..but the thing is i cant bring out my MP logbook and because of that i have to force myself to do it at work! so it's all good.

and yes i'm blogging at work! ok not really because it's my lunch time so i can do whatever i want right?haha i'm waiting for my Mcdelivery..haha joking. Nurain's buying it back for me! hehe. I'm hungry!! and i feel like eating fried rice. and i miss Jeffrey! i never see him for 2 days already okay! okay bye!

2008-11-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so emo now..and i really hate this feeling.
i really really miss Jeffrey and i really really want to see him now. and i didn't get to see him today..i'm so sad :(
man why am I so needy!so disgusting! hahahaha i think i'm going crazy!

anyways. i really hate my acupuncturist (?) why can't she just leave me alone? she charges me very ridiculous prices and i feel that there's not much improvement at all! wth! so i decided to dump her. i've been thinking about this for a long time and i really dont want to waste my money (my parents' i mean) anymore! isn't it funny how this shit bothers me so much? i mean i'm the customer here man! i am the one who can order her around (lol.sounds very wrong but i guess you get what i'm trying to say right).grrrrrrr I'm so angry!

i wished i have doraemon. i mean actually i just need the door that can go everywhere! if i have that door..i can just meet Jeffrey everyday of my life wherever and whenever. he can go anywhere to study! don't need to waste money on food and lodging 'cause he can just come back here every single day. then i can go to US and shop!! i can buy things cheap there and sell it here and i'll be rich! i can go to Europe, Japan, Egypt, Maldives or wherever anytimeee don't even need to take leave from work 'cause i can just go during the weekends because i dont have to waste time on the plane! just IMAGINE!

2008-11-22T00:55:00.000+08:00

i can only say that it feels so good to have Jeffrey back here :)

2008-11-19T18:53:00.002+08:00

ever since the start of internship, I've been reading newspaper religiously. what i mean by newspapers are those newspaper that are free (Today and the other one that is half Chinese and half English). and what i noticed is...Singaporeans are damn annoying la. okay what i meant by Singaporeans are people who write letters to the newspaper. hahaha i mean seriously they can talk about the same subject for dayssss man. one example is when they want to build some foreign worker accommodation in Serangoon. another example is the ACJC students thingy and there's a lot more la. oh then there's the issue on people eating in the MRT... they make such a big fuss about it la what the crap? anyway what i want to know is why nobody complain about stupid people who blast their equally stupid mp3 phone in public transport? seriously i totally hate such people man. more than my hatred for smelly people. 'cause you see ah, if there is a smelly man, you can just smell your hair all the way home (that is if you hair is long enough la) or you can use jacket or sweater or whatever to cover your nose. but if they blast their mp3 phones (to the max volume i tell you) how the hell are you supposed to cover your ears? cannot use your hair to cover right! and those people who usually do this stupid act are.. ahlian/ahbeng or this certain race of people lah! and some seemingly normal people. bah i really hate these people.

I'm so sleepyyyy.

2008-11-17T18:42:00.002+08:00

I am 20 :( how can this be! haha what the hell.
anyway birthday was okay. nothing much happened. celebrated it with family on saturday at Crystal Jade because my second sis have school on Sunday. papa wasn't around though. i think he feels guilty for not being here on my birthday so on sunday morning he called and sing happy birthday song for me. hmm should have make use of his guiltiness. haha. so okay. dinner was okay. pretty happy that everyone can gather and talk cock. I think i'm the kind of girl who doesnt really like crowd. HAHA lol isnt it obvious. as in i prefer to spend my birthday with the people that i loveee. be it just a simple meal or whatever. why am i digressing? anyway. ya so that's it. LOL. but then we went out to eat again on Sunday. why are we so greedy!

anyway things got a bit annoying on Sunday though. because of mama's mood swings of course. what else la seriously. she was nagging at my bro and all. seriously annoying. don't know why but things like this always happens on my birthday. just like last year when my sis got into a row with my father.. and i've never seen him so angry before. why like that ah? wah damn mood spoiler la. okay whatever.

but evrything become better becauseee Jeffrey told me that he's not going to extend his stay so he's coming back on Thursday!! oh yay.

okay.so on Sunday there's this talk about how to share the gospel with Buddhists. was looking forward to the talk but it turns out that it was kinda boring :( but i kinda know more about Buddhism. and after that talk i think that well....... i think my parents are not real Buddhist. like i bet they don't even know what Buddhism really is la. and also i found out that all the kitchen God la or whatever are not even real. i mean those Kitchen God and stuff is Folk Buddhism. which actually is not even real Buddhism. so those people who pray to kitchen god is actually praying to.... i dont know what. bah okay whatever.

So mama and Juan went back to Indo today... :( juan called from the airport but i was doing some stuff at work so i didn't pick up! so sad. and after that he send me this msg :
'Ci gracecia, we are going to depart, see you!
P.S buy my books on Nov 26!:-)'
heheh so cuteee. i miss him now :(

btw i just realised that and angry post doesn't really blend well with my cute layout. lol.

2008-11-16T18:19:00.000+08:00

Let me tell you something ma,
I am fucking sick of your bloody mood swings.

2008-11-15T00:38:00.002+08:00

went to Taka for Pepper Lunch with the people! finally!! after craving for don't know how many weeks!. I'm so tired now but i still have to read my proposal and try to make sense of my MP. and i forgot the reason why i have to use the cell that i'm using now!! why like this.!! some more i forgot to bring back boss' proposal to read. so suay. the suay-ness never end. i feel like asking Khartik but he's not online! how!! should i call boss tmr? that will be totally weird la seriously.
I'm so sleepy! anyway thank you for the gift people. i'll use it tomorrow okay lol.! and thank you for the flower khim!

anyway tok 36 just now and i took me so long to reach homeeeee. and there wasnt any seat for me! thinking of pulling my pregnant act but i didnt, simply because there was a real pregnant woman in the bus. lol i'm joking! i'm so sleepy! and there's school tmr! why oh why!

i miss Jeffrey so muchhhhhhhh :(

The suay-ness never end

2008-11-13T22:41:00.004+08:00

was preparing gel for SDS page this morning and while i was putting in the comb..the mixture splashed and it got on my cheek!! panic panic!! so i went as washed my face. after that i got so paranoid and i checked about acrylamide online. then they say i got to wash it with detergent or soap or whatever.so i went to the toilet and washed my cheek with the hand soap!! didn't even care anymore. and up till now i still dont have the symptoms they're talking about. so far so good. i really don't want to get cancer or whatever because of this.

then i was in the bus..going home..then it stopped at some bus stop between Esplanade and Suntec.. okay so while it was starting to go... some truck banged the bus! the the passengers all jerked. and i dont know whether i bang my head or not but i got headache after that until now. why must this happen to me... T_T
btw..do you think i got a concussion?? omg why am I so suay today.....

anyway Jeffrey's coming back in 10 days :(
i know some of you must be wondering why the time keep on changing. it's really not my fault i counted properly ok! but that moron extends his stay because he want to enjoy Perth and not be there just to study and suffer. i know i'm being such a baby about this but i have my reasons ok! not going to elaborate here though lol.

oh btw other than saying that he's going to pay my sis when he reaches puberty..(talking abt my bro here haha) he also say 'buy them for me please with a cherry on top...' hahahaha so cuteeeee.

2008-11-12T23:03:00.002+08:00

busy week!have been doing western blot these few days and will be doing it again 'till friday.
and seriously western blot is such a pain! so many steps and waiting time. but then it's really better than doing nothing!

went to watch High School Musical with my brother and sisters just now. ahahha lol there're lots of 'what the..' moment in the movie. like seriously! and whenever there's a 'what the..' scene my elsest sis will do this body spasm thing.haha retarded! then there were this people behind us singing along!! what is this! they think it's a sing-along session or what. and when Troy came out.. some people were swooning! what is this! i got to admit that he's kinda cute though.. but swooning in the cinema? what the creep.

so went around the mall after that for a while. so when we were in Daiso, my brother asked my sister to buy some stuff for him. so he was just begging and talking sweetly so that somebody's willing to buy it for him hahaha. so then he saw my younger sis and he said 'hey tall girl!' and start asking her to buy the stuff..hahaaahaa then he said 'I'll pay you when i reached puberty. I'll pay you double!.' hahhahahahha what the hell???? i'll pay you when i reached puberty?? where the hell does that come from man?

bah okay i'm tiredddd.

2008-11-10T00:17:00.000+08:00

by the way.... can anybody send me Dishwalla's songs???

2008-11-09T23:30:00.002+08:00

i feel so sad whenever i think that there's work tmr :(

anyway. went to Jade Restaurant at Fullerton Hotel to eat just now. it was nice but didn't get to eat the dessertttttt so sad.

anyway today i want to talk about my sister. my second sister to be exact. whoa sound so serious hhaha it's not la. anyway you know she's like the slowest person in the family. i mean among all of us la. so it's like whenever we are talking about some stuff..she'll be like huh? what i dont get it..that kind of thing..so we'll be like you're damn slow blah blah. other than that, she always say things wrongly..like she wanted to say blond..but she said it as bolon. haha wth!? or when she want to say Dublin..she said Dubai hahaha lol. so the other day all of us were talking about oil. as in you know...axe oil and all that. i dont even know why we talked about it hahaha so then we talked about how last time my grandma bought a type of oil that we can drink hahaha what the hell right.. then suddenly my second sis say last time when she was in primary school her friend always drink axe oil (!!! wth !!!) hahaha then she also say that she also drink because her friend ask her to drink it!??!! hahaha lol lol lol. so were like hahahaaaaaaa what the crap!! so we were like ohh ohh thats why youre so slow now...the axe oil must be affecting your brain..haha so after that day whenever she's being slow we always say ahh..axe oil axe oil. lol. and i think she's getting fed up 'cause we keep on teasing her haha but sometimes its just too funny lah.

watched Silence of The Lamb on friday. it was very niceee i like! not as scary as i thought it would be though. in fact it's not even scary at all la. but it's good. and watched Funny Games on Saturday. it sucks like hell. like seriously. the worst movie i have ever seen, lucky i didnt watched in the cinema if not i can cry in the cinema. like seriously. it is such a meannn movie. not even halfway my sister and I were all angry already so we decided to fast forward it. ahahha lol.

okay that's all..and Jeffrey's coming back in exactly 10 dayssssss!!!!!!!!!! wohooo.

2008-11-06T12:46:00.002+08:00

in the lab now and nobody's here 'cause everyone's out for lunchhh.
feeling so bored at work nowadays cause there's nothing to do! can't believe i'm saying this but i really want to do something! seriously!!
okay bye.

2008-11-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

changed my blogskin!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHHAa oh man my blog skin is so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Thank you Carolineeeeeeeeee :D

2008-11-04T21:07:00.002+08:00

what you can give me for my birthday :

nitendo DS Lite
Ipod classic
Lots of dresses
Hard disk (the bigger the better)

haha yeah i also wondering why they are all expensive. the dresses are not that ex though. haha.! why oh why am i so shameless. okay whatever i dont care.

Okay I'm done here. HAHA.

2008-10-29T20:38:00.002+08:00

I almost died today.

so as usual i was sleeping in the bus this morning, then i woke up suddenly 'cause my back was so so so sore. i dont even know why. and on top of that i felt like puking so badly. very horrible feeling i tell you. then i reached my bus stop, got off from the bus then i suddenly felt like i was about to faint! panic panic!! can you imagine, i can even panic while i'm about to faint. lol so i tried to calm myself down by sitting down.haha so i felt better then i started crossing the road, jaywalked i mean. once i reached the other side..i felt like i was about to faint again! omg! so i walked so slowlyy. and kept on reminding myself not to faint. the worst part is i was already panting after walking a few steps! so then i have to climb two stairs to get to my lab. in the end i took the lift 'cause i really think i was going to die after i climbed the first stairs. what a horrible morning. but i felt much better after i did transfection. lol why ah? is it because there's better air circulation at the fumehood? lol.

I'm still feeling not so well now. so i guess i'm going to sleep early.hmm.

anyway on the way home, as usual i was sleeping.. actually no la i was just resting then i suddenly smell this sick smell you know.. then i was like okay la. then when i reached my bus stop i saw the security guard from my place going down also!! omg this security guard damn damn damn smelly one leh!! really!! i have such a powerfull nose leh! dont know whether it's a good or bad thing.bah. i'm generally okay with taking public transport ('cause i also can't and refused to learn driving. even if i can drive i won't have a car so why bother lol) but the problem with taking bus and all is all these smelly people la. omg i sound really mean but seriously! i hate smelly people! if youre smelly then wear perfume or smth la! i mean if you have BO then okay la.. i mean i dont like BO but sometimes they just can't control it mah. but there are lots of people who smells like they dont bathe one loh! damn annoying!

It's the 29th baby and it's out 7th year together. i dont have any mushy stuff to say to you('cause i'm quite incapable of saying such stuff) so i just want to say that my back is still damn sore so i cant think of anything. just come back here faster la! love love!

okay off to slack on my bed. yay.

2008-10-27T22:05:00.001+08:00

back in Singapore :(
and there's work tomorrow :(

2008-10-26T00:05:00.002+08:00

Hello from Indo! wahaha lame.
bah woke up late this morning cause i slept late the night before. haahha and i cant find my new contacts!! bah so angry.forget where i put them! wanted to buy new one just now but there's no time.
so reached here half an hour late because the plane was delayed blah blah blah. annoying this plane always late. and the feet space was so small. had an uncomfortable flight just now. so reached home and stoned. and went to this restaurant to eat.hahaha yay i ate meat!
anyway my house got 2 cold rooms. ahahah lol just like in the lab like that! so funny!
okay that's it for now.
goodbye from Indo! lol

2008-10-23T21:28:00.002+08:00

Freedom Writers is such a nice movie! i mean i knew from the start how it would end and all that but it's still nice because of the racism issues and all! and Patrick Dempsey is damn calefare there. haha he's hot though.

had basic safety training the whole day. super boring! lucky today is the last session yay. and i was stuck in the bus for 1 1/2 hours when i was going to work in the morning! i dont why. i think there's jam in amber round about there but i didn't bother to find out what happened because sleeping's more important haha.

Sigh! Gladys attachment ends in one week! or two weeks i'm not sure. and when she leaves Khartik will still be in india. how! I'll be so lonely in the lab :(

meeting gen tmr. yeayyy. haha

anyway the other day my brother was playing Block Breaker with my handphone..so after a while he died. then he said this stupid sentence in his girly voice :
' Ah i died! what will my sister think of me!'
haha lol. damn retarded.

2008-10-21T22:49:00.002+08:00

I've been feeling so down these past few days and i dont even know why.
found out that Khartik will go back for 3 weeks! thats damn long lah. so anyway i woke up late this morning but i wasnt late for work (i think).
have been struggling with proposal these few days. haha obviously i havent finish it. initially i want to finish it before Khartik goes back but well..obviously it's impossible.

wanted to ask gen out to watch Nights in Rodanthe this saturday but then i suddenly realised that i cant make it because I'm GOING BACK TO INDO.YAY. haha i want to watch mamma mia too. and many other movies! bah since jeffrey go away i havent go to cinema. okay maybe i went once for wall-e.

I need someone to talk to now! what i mean by someone is genfu.! and she's not online.and i'm too lazy to call her.what is this. I'm so hungry now :(

Last night my sis watched DVD. as in when my grandpa passed away and all that. she's so brave 'cos she can watched the whole thing! i watched for at most 5 minutes and i was crying. in the end i didn't watch it.

ok thats it.bye

2008-10-18T11:43:00.002+08:00

It's the weekend! yay yay yay don't need to go to work. but i have to finish my proposal by monday because I want to ask Khartik about the project because he's going back to India for Deepavali! why like that! and he's going back for 2 weeks!! so long!nobody is going to wait for 8 hours to change media for me after transfection :(

Anyway work is okay these days..because.. i dont know why also. anyway I was damn shocked when i found out that Khartik is only 21 years old.!! anyway khartik is my 'mentor'..but he's not my supervisor okay.my supervisor is the boss whom i dont really interact too. anyway back to khartik's age..yes he's only 21 years old and he's been there for about 1 year already! so he started to work there when he's 20. and he graduated from NUS when he was 19/20! wah this boy damn smart. all along i thought that he's 24/25..haha damn 'yuan wang'. I still dont believe that he's 21 leh! but then he showed me his ID and well.. why life is so unfair! I'm only 1 year younger than him and i don't even have a diploma :( depressed. and he say it's normal in India. i mean normal that people get their degree at 19. Really meh!

So my future is still very blurry.haha. i still dont know what to do after poly! how like that! initially i wanted to work for a while and then study again. but then when i think about it what work can i do with just a diploma? some more GPA damn low. so then i suddenly feel like learning how to do bussiness, which is like so damn random lah. i want to know how my papa works you know. so i was thinking maybe i can go back indo and work with my papa for a while. haha but i dont think i will do that because it's just damn weird la. i even dreamt about it you know last night..it's like i tell my papa i want to travel with him and learn from him..and he said no!!! I'm even rejected in my own dream..what is this.. T_T

So if i want to go uni i have to go overseas of course. the nearest one is Aussie. okay actually there's Monash in KL but i heard it's hard to get in there. so anyway my point is I'm very lazy to go out to a new enviroment..have to settle down in a new place, find new friends..lazy la like that. some more i dont think there's enough money..sigh

Btw in a very random note, I feel that i've change a lot since i move to penang. its like in indo i was really cool lah.hHAHA i mean i made lots of friends back in Indo. then when i moved to penang i became damn retarded lah. maybe because everbody there speak in chinese and i cant even converse in chinese.but then again my school in Penang is like an Indon school because more than 50% of the students there are from Indo you know! it's like because after the race riot in Indo, the Indons started to run around the world haha. or maybe because i was bullied when i first got into the school by fellow Indons. why like that! yes i was bullied! by this girl and her friends.

oh oh and there's this weird story about this girl that bullied me. you know every chinese new year i always hang out at my rich aunty's house. so i think last year during CNY, i dont know what i was doing la, i think i was sleeping in my cousin's room or something (what's new la seriously) while the rest of the world were downstairs partying. haha okay la not partying,just hanging out. so during the ride home...my sisters told me that about this family who came and their daughters studied in the same school as we were (which in the school in penang) my sis know because some of their daughter were in the same class as my sister. and yes they are talking about that girl's family lah! the one who bullied me! and apparently her father worked for my uncle. i think. as in my uncle is his client or something. haha how small can this world be! and somemore my cousin keep on asking for the girl's number because he say she's pretty! what is this! but then it's all history now. HAHA action only.

hmm i think this is my longest post. feel like talking alot today i dont know why. oh btw! i watched Dreamgirls yesterday! i like it a lot yo! It's like i've been listening to beyonces's 'Listen' for the longest time but i never really watched the movie. after i watched it then i understand about the song! but the movie is a bit too long..its like about 2 hour plus. but i still like it!

oh and Aili! why you never come online nowadays! i want to tell you that my papa is distributing the rice rolls in indo! you know the one that we like to eat! the one thats made of lots of different types of beans and the packaging is damn ugly one! hahaha so now i can give you free samples! but then we hardly see each other these days.

oh and I'm going back to Indo in a week!! YAY so excited! I'm going back for the long weekend!! because my cousin is getting married!! haha yay yay yay so happy!

can you sense the mood changes in this entry? hahahahaa

2008-10-09T22:14:00.003+08:00

I'm done with Moonlight Resonance yo.! basically just like what Leep said, Moonlight Resonance is a more pleasant show to watch as compared to Heart of Greed in a way. i guess its because everybody know who the bad guy is quite early. haha. and whenever there's some annoying dispute going on, it's solved pretty soon. anyway I think i'll score really well if my MP is about Moonlight Resonance. HAHA.

Somebody was being annoying at work today. what the hell. anyway there's a new female research officer in the lab. hahaha. now the lab is crowded. okay thats all. oh and jeffrey's coming back 3 days earlier wohoo.

2008-10-06T21:58:00.002+08:00

check this out :

http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3159/2807838577_83cbed0126_o.jpg?t=1053139

this is so funny. i know it's quite mean but it's funny lah! and i got it from www.timothytiah.blogspot.com

so there i was spreading this link around cause it's really damn funny la. but someone just have to spoil it for me.haiya whatever la. i dont want to talk about it. i mean i know i was being over sensitive. but this is not the first time ok. aiyah damn annoyed.

Boss is MIA! why like this! i still dont know what my MP title is.. i think I'll just do a summary of what i've been doing all these while.

Anyways. jusr realised that its only 6 weeks before i can see Jeffrey! yay.

2008-10-06T00:19:00.002+08:00

guess who wore shorts to Mai's house for Hari Raya visitation? YES ITS ME. please dont ask me why, I'm too embarrassed to explain.. why am I always like this T_T
anyway, glad that i went over because the foods' nice! HAHa such a pig. and her parents and siblings are funny bunch of people. had fun there although the journey home almost killed me cause it took me 1 hour and 40 minutes to reach home. so that was my first Hari Raya visitation and I got green packet too. haha I was damn excited i dont know why.

So watched 10,000 BC for the second time today. i love the show haha. what sia so random.

and the tmr I'll be doing stuff on my own! i mean experiments. I'm quite excited..and i dont even know why. havent started on my sypnosis and stuff. anyways..attended two seminars last week. the first one was really bad 'cause i dont understand what the crap the speaker was talking about.. the second time was much better though 'cause i kinda get what the guy was talking about. It's like Rtechb lecture all over again..but without Jason. haha. and also they provided lunch after that so it was good. hahhaaaa anyway the first seminar reminds me so much of symposium!! the difference is of course I can't skip and go home.haha. damn.

Hmm. I miss Jeffrey so much :( 7 more weeks and he's back. I CAN'T WAIT.

okay I'm going off now 'cause the laptop is making weird noises. it scares me and i dont want it to die on me.

oh oh. i've been having moonlight resonance marathon.haha on episode 22 now! 18 more episodes to go!! wohoo.

2008-10-03T12:46:00.002+08:00

I've been sleeping a lot these past few days..because i have nothing to do at work seriously I'm so bored i can die.Some more the computer at work blocks all those fun websites like..crunchyroll and neopets HAHA. oh now.will i get into trouble for saying this.? i dont think so la ho cause I think not a lot of people read my blog.

So things are pretty confusing between Jeffrey and me. i dont like this at all. I miss him so much but why can't I stop fighting with him?? and we fought again last night and i think he kinda forgot that we're supposed to be angry with each other 'cause when i sms-ed him he replied me with a cheerful 'yaaa'. dont ask me how i know that its cheerful or not. Its just because i said so okay.

hmm okay.Goodbye world. i think it's nap time.

2008-10-03T11:51:00.002+08:00

I'm bored.
started watching moonlight resonance last night and it's good! I cant wait to go home and watch again hahahaaa

ok time for lunch

2008-09-13T16:24:00.002+08:00

You know.. i always wake up all of a sudden when i'm sleeping because i spasm?
it's like for example I dreamt that I was falling down or something so i spasm and woke up.. So anyway i was falling asleep last night then suddenly I spasm and woke up. guess what I'm dreaming... haha so my dream was i was holiding eppendorf tube you know..there're some cells inside. so i forgot what i was doing with it la. i think i was lysing the cells or wiping the suprface or something..then suddenly the tube dropped from my hand!! then i spasm(ed)...what kind of dream is this... T_T

So anyways. my sis's ipod's spoilt. and she cried!! like seriously she hardly cry one loh. anyway. my brother was going for his tuition at parkway. so he talked to my sis la. so it went like this

He : ' Eh so how you want me to buy ipod for you or not?'
She: ' you got money meh?'
He : ' you give me money then i help you buy lah'

a few seconds later...

He: 'eh give me extra money ok. I want to buy burger...'

haha what the crap? i find this damn funny la i dont know why.

anyway i was damn busy on Friday! dont even have time to be sleepy! did the same old thing like western blot,subculturing blah blah blah. sups coming back on monday! die i havent read the articles and journals he gave me.

by the way. why smelly people like to sit near me ah? like in the bus and everything. is it because opposites attract? HAHAHA.

2008-09-10T20:45:00.002+08:00

had infection control and mask fitting today. So anyway after the mask fitting we got to go outside and tell the lady what our sizes for the mask are. so she asked us to write it down lah like our sizes, names and which department we are from. So anyway while i was writing.. Ain suddenly looked at my paper and say eh our department is NCC lah! then the lady in charge looked at my paper and she laughed.. guess what i wrote.. i wrote CNN instead of NCC.. oh man. i never fail to embarrass myself where ever i go T_T

just checked my results. i got D+ for LAST. what the crap??

anywayzz.
Jeffrey's coming back in exactly 11 weeks!!!!!!!!

2008-09-09T21:38:00.002+08:00

So SIP was okay i guess. there are 4 people in the lab that i'm attached to and one of them is another intern from TP Biomed. So i guess the people there are okay.. pretty helpful. my supervisor (sups) is quite nice too (okay la so far..he's nice) haven't really interact with him because he went to Aussie today for a week! haha. so the other 2 people in the lab are okay too. one is really hardworking 'cause he comes the earliest and always doing some work while the other one is..i dont know whether he's a slacker or not..but all i know is he always come later than 9 (okay maybe not always but these 2 days la) and he watches movies and stuff like that. haha.

So the first day was very boring.like seriously. we weren't given anything to do. okay la actually the sups gave us our project already. i think it will be my major project later on and we were give two different projects! mine is about breast cancer. so anw he gave us articles and reports and we have to read them and whatever la. and they are so boring! some more i dont understand them haha i really hate reading all these reports.

today was much better eventhough we only made some buffer. haha better than nothing right! oh and we did western blot too!. anyway in the morning one of the guys ask us to calculate all these stuff la i mean you know like how many grams must we put to make all these buffers.. then obviously i dont know how to do la because well...i suck at it. and so i was like shit! how! i didnt want to ask him how to do hahaha. so i called Caroline!! haha this is madness la. i mean how can i call her to ask such things right! seriously. anw. i really called her but she never picked up la. so in the end we did wrongly haha. why am i like this...

So i guess thats all la. oh btw i dont have to work on Saturdays.yay! sups said we are supposed to come only when there's experiments to do so when my experiment starts I'm going to plan them very very carefully so that i dont have to come back on saturday. haha. oh and you knw.. the sups and one of the guys in the lab have this thick accent leh.! its like i dont understand what they're saying la! i have to ask them to keep on repeating then I'll get it! i bet they think that I'm deaf or something..

oh there's this pre-school beside my building and there are lots of cute kids! so whenever i go home there are always these kids from the pre-school at the bus stops. haha..

2008-09-06T15:10:00.002+08:00

I'm going to complain about the placing for SIP.
okay actually don't need la 'cause i think the place that I'm posted to is fine (okay..too soon to say this.. don't want to jinx it)
so I'm posted to NCC which is the National Cancer Centre ( is it?) actually I'm not even sure and its pretty good because it's near. i mean not near to my place but definitely nearer than Tuas or Jurong Island.
the only complaint i have is that i have to work on Saturday and I dont get any pay..but not so much of the later i guess? okay actually it bothers me quite a lot. simply because most of my friends will get some money. but anyway. haha whatever. i just hope that my supervisor is a nice man.

anyway i was complaining to my papa about not getting paid then he said 'okay la I will pass some money to SGH and ask them to pay my daughter.' haha Thanks pap.

had BBQ at east coast yesterday and it was..i dont know. i was very sleepy and i didnt even know why la. maybe because i was trying to control my brother from eating too much most of the time. but then Leep was taking care of him most of the time. okay I'm not making any sense here but whatever.

Oh. anyways. Because Jeffrey misses his pretty girlfriend a lot (that's me!) he decided to move to Monash KL! oh yay. and he's coming back in november! I CAN'T WAIT! but i have to work on Saturday lei. :(

BLAH. then i don't like this girl from my class. i just think she's so.. i dont know. i cant even explain. and if you( i mean you people reading my blog) think that it's someone..then you're wrong. HAHA GEDDIT?

2008-08-25T01:51:00.002+08:00

you know I talked to Jeffrey this morning then when we were saying our goodbyes and everything... he said things like.. if you have any problem there you have to call and tell me ok.
the you know what i said.. I said things like tell you for what? you'll fly here and help me meh?

my goodness I can be so bitchy sometimes.

I miss him so much I want to fly to Perth already lahhhh.

2008-08-25T01:18:00.002+08:00

omg i just used my phone to call Jeffrey for 25 minutes. i'm going to die a horrible death when my phone bill arrives. omg. my papa will kill me. how how how. die

you knw it's like whenever Jeffrey not online or smth, i always try to call him. then i always let it ring 3 times then i'll hang up. then my heart is always beating damn fast and it's not because i'm excited to talk to him you knw..i'm scared then he'll pick up my phone omg i'm so stingy i can't even stand myself. WHY AM I SO STINGY?

okay actually not really because i'm stingy la.. it's because my parents pay for everything okay. i feel bad lah. if i pay with my own money i don't care la. but the thing is i dont even have money now! i think i need to start working part time..so that i can spend more money to talk to Jeffrey.

i'm really hating this long-distance thingy with all my heart. seriously.

lskdhvasvnakfjl;aiugv;k!!!!!!!

2008-08-24T01:07:00.002+08:00

i woke up at 6.30am to revise my Rtechb.
my father saw me studying and talked to me.

He: you got exam ah?
Me: yea
He: when?
Me: later loh
He: success ah. ( i think what he mean was good luck ah)
Me: haha ok thanks
He: out of 10 points , how much (or many? haha my English sucks) do you intend to get?
Me:.. dunno
He: 7 enough la ho? ( haha i was thinking ..can i even smell a 4..)
Me: haha ok!

then he walked away.. and found something in his pocket..and turned back.

He: (give me a sweet) nah for you. when you can't do the paper you eat this then you'll know how to do.
Me: hahhaha thanks.

Haha. my papa can be quite sweet sometimes.
Sorry pa, definitely no 7/10 for you.

damn rain so asshole these days! hate it!
almost got frostbite in the bus because of it. damn cold lah!

2008-08-21T02:02:00.002+08:00

my brother is so stupid. HAHA
you know the Disney show Hanna(h) Montana? anyway for those of you who are weird and don't watch Disney channel, the show is about Miley Cyrus, who is a normal girl that is hated by the people in her school (i dont know why. just started watching). so anyway. actually she's also this superstar called Hanna(h) Montana (DUH).
So my younger sis was watching the show with my brother.. then he suddenly say

'ci baoping,'
'what'
'are you Leona Lewis?? look at me in the eye!'

HAHA what the.. do you get it? anyway, ci is jie and baoping is my sis' Chinese name.

Weirdo. so my teeth are damn painful la. crap. every night i have a hard time eating dinner. so sad you knw. its like i want to eat then i can't because of my teeth! you know i spent 10 minutes to chew 5 bite-size long bean! pathetic.

and LAST is finally over yeay!! wohoo. i didn't cheat for the paper and well..i saw people who cheated.

oh suddenly remembered. anyway you knw we had to do this project a few weeks ago. then me and pg were in the same group again. and we don't knw how to do anything because well.. we are always blur/late in/to class. so during the grouping nobody wants to be in our group. except for the absentees (because she got no choice since she wasn't there. how to spell??) and some other guy. anyway out of the point alrdy. okay so there's this guy who knw more than us and he didnt want to be in our group. and I think he didnt want to be in our group 'cause the people in our group don't knw how to do anything la. then obviously i was pissed that day when he sort of rejected us. i mean like what the crap?
So yea whatever. i sort of tell PG nvm! we'll figure this out ourselves! (trying to act like a hero). so anyway to cut the long story short, in the end, when i was checking out the results, i saw the my group's results are higher than that guy's group's results. hahaha. and i have to say thanks to PG for staying up so late and working so hard for the project. eh and i did work hard too okay.! i stayed up with him halfway hahaha.

Okay that's all.

2008-08-19T00:09:00.003+08:00

you know what?

i realise that i blog a lot during exam period. why ah?

anywayz. i'm supposed to be memorising wound healing, bioartificial kidney blah blah blah but i'm not. sometimes.. my own laziness amazes me.

I've been thinking about what i want to do after poly. and I seriously don't know what to do

I think I'm going to work for a while first. and I want to further my studies eventhough i really don't want to.hahha i mean i'm really lazy to study again but i can't go anywhere with only a diploma, can I?

So.. i want to do nursing. I've been thinking about it a lot and i really regret for not going to NYP and do nursing. i chose assholebiotech, instead. what a smart move gracecia.

I miss Jeffrey so so so so muchhhh.

If i can lose weight by crying, the 3kg that i gained will be gone by now.

2008-08-17T22:50:00.002+08:00

Oh just remembered.
I think it's weird that Singapore is so proud of the Ping Pong team for getting into the finals..
I mean the athletes are from China la please. so it's like.. China vs China for finals..
and just now i saw this girl watching pingpong finals in hawker centre while carrying a Singapore flag. LOL.

2008-08-17T22:40:00.002+08:00

today's Indo's birthday and She's 63 y-o today! and so we celebrated by watching the national day closing ceremony on TVRI and went off to eat Korean bbq at Joo Chiat. anyway the food was not so nice i think. i still prefer the japanese bbq at Meridien Hotel. I mean sure the jap bbq is more expensive but it's worth it.

So.. after that we went home and watched the badminton final for mixed double and Indo was beaten by Korea!!!! what the crap! i hate Korea! especially the cocky-faced guy in the mixed double! It's like what the crap! we ate their food and they beat Indo! feel like puking all the Korean food after that. HAHA.

I haven't touch Rtechb and BPT at all. and i'm not even halfway through TE and LAST. Don't judge me people.

and I'm teething. bloody painful la! why now? like seriously, why now??

2008-08-17T03:16:00.002+08:00

'Because you're always in my heart.'

I'm missing you so much that it starts to hurt baby.
everything starts to sink in now.
why must it be now?

2008-08-15T20:39:00.002+08:00

had LAST prac test just now and amazingly,i didn't do anything. hahahha what the crap!?? Seriously I think I'm the lousiest one la.i mean who the hell can't even do one of the four things?

Anyway.. Term tests and exams are coming. and i still don't have the motivation to study. i keep on telling myself that it would be damn stupid if I cant graduate 'cause I fail one of the subjects this semester.. but hahaha i still cant concentrate lah.

and i've been watching too much TV lately, with the Olympics and all.haha lucky gymnastic is over! the winner for the woman individual is so pretty! hmm. I'm so sleepy.

So parents are in Taiwan AGAIN. haha and so we decided to eat meat! we've been so meat-deprived lately because my parents decided to go vegetarian, and they say if my mama cooks meat for us she'll be sinful(???!!!) what the crap. whatever loh.

oh just the other day, i heard two people complaining about the exams and all..then after a few minutes i realised that they were talking about HAP and stuff! HAHA.

Jeffrey's planning to come back for 3 weeks and the end of January! yay! i hope he's really coming backkk.

oh oh remember last time i was talking about this annoying guy that always teases me about my height and in the end i blocked him from my MSN? well, he found out that i blocked him and i think it's really damn funny lah. hahaha. the whole complete story is too long to write out..okay la actually not so long but i'm damn tired and lazy to write them out. haha

OKAY LAH. bye!

2008-08-01T23:42:00.001+08:00

BTW, i gained 3 kg la what the freak!

2 days.

2008-08-01T23:07:00.003+08:00

all these while I'm always looking forward to Saturday simply because it's dating day and so i get to spend the whole day with Jeffrey.

anyways. i was like a bit excited just now 'cause it's Friday and it means that i can spend the next day with Jeffrey. i forgot that he's in Perth la what the crap!
I can already predict what we'll be doing if he's still here. I bet we'll be watching The Mummy tmr :(

the wheather these days are like freaking mad la. Bloody hot can! and everyday i complain about it to Jeffrey and in return he complains that it's too cold down there. haha. a bit funny.

went to this SYMBIO(?) thingy at NYP. it's super boring so caroline, aili ,wilson and me went to AMK hub to eat pepper lunch and went home. haha my first time to AMK hub believe it or not! and i took 135 home.it's like from one end to another end seriously. my butt was damn pain when i reached home.

And things have been quite weird between us lately. and i really don't like it. but then again i somehow predicted that one day this kinda whing will happen (and you were the one who assured me that it won't happen). So seriously, i have nothing to say now. i can only hope that things will return to normal soon, because i miss you very much.

2008-07-30T00:59:00.002+08:00

i spent the WHOLE day with JEffrey. and i am happy. no actually i'm sad. okay i'm like sad and happy at the same time.whatever la. i mean i'm happy cos i spent the whole day with him but i'm sad 'cause he's leaving la.
helped him packed up in the morning. and we just did what we always do (And pretty good at it).i mean we were slacking the whole day.and talked..talked..and talked. and emo-ed together.for a short while. then we went to eat Japanese BBQ at MEridien Hotel and we were damn full until we almost puked.hahahaah quite funny acually. then went back to his place again and slacked AGAIN.and talked talked talked and emo again. hahahaha lame la.

Jeffrey's leaving tmr. actually its like today! 'cause its past 12 already.
and there's interview tmr.not nervous yet. will be nervous around.. 1 hour before my turn.HA.

hmm. anyway i had a dream abt my grandpa. he was like so happy in my dream and he told me he wants 'teh sirem'. then i woke up. and think hmm maybe i should tell my mom ..and maybe we can give him whatever he wants..but the problem is.. what the heck is 'teh sirem'??

OMG JEFFREY'S LEAVING TMR HOWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway.i think i want to work part time. like just work on the weekend. maybe i'll start looking after exam or something.. I'm planning to visit Jeffrey in Perth after graduation yo!!!! (if i graduate) i mean i'll still visit him even if i cant graduate. and of course there'll be problems with getting permission from my parents..but i'll think abt them later. let me dream for a 'lil longer.

okay so before i end this rather redundant entry, let me say this one more time.
OMG JEFFREY'S LEAVING TMR HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!

2008-07-28T22:11:00.002+08:00

Jeffrey's off to Perth in hmm. one day?okay maybe 2 days time.
okay la he'll be leaving on Wednesday. So.... I'm going out with him tmr.. so that means.. i'm going to skip school. So please help me people please!! If U Tin Lin takes attendance tmr.. please sign for me PLEASE!!
And on wednesday..I'm going to skip RTechb.

You know.i always think that i will catch up all my work for BPT like maybe..soon. but then i think there wont be enough time. because of all the calculations la damn it. i just dont get it la walao.this is what playing hangman and stoning during lecture will do to you. shitz.

Then then.ok la that's all. i have no mood to do anything now.

2008-07-22T02:18:00.002+08:00

Okay let me start the post by saying...
Jeffrey's chance of going to Aussie is unknown. haha like stock market like that. fluctuates everyday. I'm so lame .

Anyway. baby was in a super bad mood today and i went over to his place.
Then he said he wanted to be alone when i reached there.
i was like asklghasg!?!!
but i didn't scold/smack him eventhough it was super duper tempting, because i remembered about Sunday's sermon. ok actually i did throw a tiny tantrum and in the end he sort of console me. hahaa This always happen, like initially i'm supposed to console him but in the end .. ahNEVERMIND. HAHA i love you baby.

OH so. you know what. it's like suddenly i realise that if Jeffrey's really going to Aussie then he'll leave next week. and that means i only have around 1more week to see him. and guess what. there're lots of things to do this week. shitzz.

then then. Mich got into NUS. with Gen. ANd they're in the same course!. I'm so JEALOUS. I also want to join you all la. :(

papa&mama are going to Taiwan again tmr.

ok la off to sleep.

2008-07-19T01:15:00.004+08:00

Mock interview went alright eventhough i was super super nervous before i went into the room.
really nervous i think i almost puke and shit at the same time.really no joke one.

ANYWAY. had a very bad day in school today.
like whats wrong with the world?! shit man. i should start loving myself more so that i won't be upset when people talk/saying annoyingly bad stuff about me.
i hate school now. REALLY. i hope SIP will be better.

met up with JEffrey after school and thank God i did that because he made everything better.
So ,Thank you baby :D

and i miss Gen so much that i have to talk to her a few times in school today.

and Leep said that she never make fun about my height either.. so that explains why i love her too la.hahaha

i'm going mental.

2008-07-15T00:47:00.002+08:00

feel like blogging even though i dont really know what to blog.

so will be having mock interview on wednesday and i'm very scared that i will answer her questions stupidly (there's 99.9% chance that I'll do this)

oh I was scolded by U Tin Lin during Lab session. He suddenly shouted (okay almost) because I was lazy to go to AS4! and i was shocked really. not because of his sudden outburst, but because of his teeth. so I got a full-frontal view of his teeth when he shouted and let's just say that it was not very nice. I want to post Leep's drawing of his teeth but then it would be too mean. heheh.

anyways. I think the Jeffrey's chance of going to Aussie increases by maybe.. 20 percent. haha I think I'm going crazy. it's like all i can think about everyday is Jeffrey's chances of going to
Aussie.haha. how weird.

You know I've been with Jeffrey for 6Years8monthsAND15Days. That's very long. I didn't expect us to last this long. and i'm wondering how long more we'll go on.
I've been asked more than once why i love Jeffrey. and i always answer i dont know. because i really don't know why. which is weird. right? and up till now i still dont know why.

then just a few days ago I realised something. you know how people always teased me and talk about my height like as if it bothers them so much that i'm short? I mean sure I'm pretty used to it by now but it bothers me sometimes you know. okay anyway back to what i wanted to say.
I realised that Jeffrey never teased me about my height. He never joked around with the fact that I'm short like most of the people that i know do. Not even once. and I think that it's so sweet of him. Maybe that's one of the reasons why i love him. (the other reasons are still mostly unknown)

Ya Okay. My brother is so cutee.
you know we always ask him to do assessment books and on the cover page of the books there are always the descriptions of the book in point forms. so anyway my brother added another point and he wrote ' Too much works kill ' and on his chinese assessment book he wrote '太多练习能杀人!' HAHAHA.

then the other day, my younger sis brought home a balloon. so he drew a smiley face on it and he called it Mr. Happy (or Smiley i forget). so he brought it around and asked me to say hi to it. then my eldest sister heard it and ask me what happen. so I asked my brother to bring Mr.Smiley back 'cause my sister wanted to say hi. then he gave us this weird look and say "both of you are freaks!" HAHAHA so stupid. i mean he's the one who started it! So after that my sis said come let me take a picture of you and Mr.Smiley. so he posed and placed the balloon beside his cheek and say 'My good frienddddd' in place of the normal 'cheseee'. haha so cute.

And i think i'm going to die (temporarily maybe) if Jeffrey's really going off to Aussie.
I love you lah baby. :(
ahh..emo again.

2008-07-13T22:27:00.002+08:00

hey ho! it's been long yo

anyways lots of works these days. but i never do anything so as a results i'm rushing everything now. So lots of things happened for the past few weeks..
i skipped most of my first week of school cause my cousins were here. went out with them every single day. went to malls, museums and slept at 3 every night because we played mahjong and gossiped.haha.

and i've been feeling super duper lazy these days. like seriously!!i skipped more classes than ever. its like when there are chances to skip i'll just skip. seriously. i think i'm addicted to skipping classes and this is SUPER BAD. i'm going to die if I fail anything this sem.

So anyway I think there's like 99% chance that Jeffrey won't be going for the July intake because he's having lots of problems here and there. but he refuses to believe that and he's still trying so damn hard to go. so I should be happy that he can't go. but then actually believe it or not I'm not happy. and it's not because I dont want him here. you know in books or dramas or even some people la they always say to their girlfriend or boyfriend that oh..I'll be happy as long as you're happy and that kind of thing. and you know all along i always think that that's just crap la. but then again i realised that's what i'm feeling now. like I know i'll be damn sad if Jeffrey's going away and everything, but i will be even sadder if he can't go because i know he really really really wants to go. which is super weird really.! and i miss him so muchh! because he's been going back and forth to Indo for dont know how many times already and we hardly spend time with each other this one month :(
and i never went out for 3 weekends because he's not here believe it or not!
ah.so emo.

anyway wednesday night was very fun! it's been way too long since we all gathered and talk craps.! i hope we can do it again. but thats pretty hard cause its damn hard to find and timing that suits every single one of us haha!

okay then. That's allllllll.

2008-06-18T23:45:00.003+08:00

i just finished watching Sex and the City (the series i mean) and i'm so sad that it's over!!
i need to watch the movie like now!!

So anyways. holiday still. havent been doing anything and as usual i love it because i can just watch movies all day long. and nobody nags because i wake up at 12 or 1 and sleeps at 4 to 5 almost everyday.

then. still thinking about long distance r/l. its like i always think about it and i feel so so sad and i just dont know who to talk to. so anyway days ago i talked to one of my friend about it. i mean i thought she would understand 'cause she gone through ldr herself. but then..i dont know. i mean yea she gave me her opinion and all that stuff which is great and i appreciate it really. but its like..she doesn't get me you know.. i mean she's so practical and all. and also..i realised that in her r/l, she's the one who always go away..so maybe that's why she just doesnt get me. but then again..i'm dont even know in details about her r/l so i dont know lah.

If everything works out, then he'll go away in about..hmm around 3 weeks. shits.
i mean i'm supposed to be happy for him right? like thats what he really wants and all. but i'm not happy at all. yes i'm selfish and i dont care!! and no one is allowed to judge me.

2008-06-12T05:25:00.003+08:00

wohoo.it's been long people.
anyway i know i'm late but oh yay term tests over! wohoo . i'm supposed to be very excited for term break but.er because there so many things to do i can't make myself excited. Anyway i woke up today at arounf 12am to do my TE. hardworking eh!. anyway i think i finished it .. er i'm definately not satisfied with my lab reports but.. i dont even give a damn anymore because 3 reports = 5%? what is this! okay la actually it's only the lit review and methods. but still right. whatever. i dont want to touch it anymore. and there're still more stuff to do. lets see.. there's BPT project that's due next month..TE PBL!! damn after laughing(silently) at aili and caroline for the first half of the semester i finally got it.

anyway term test was...er i dont know how to describe it. haha all i know is i screwed my BPT for sure! so thats about it.

anyway just last week, my cousin came over to Singapore from Penang! hahaha okay her parents came also and they treated us to Jumbo and Waraku. hahaha anyway i really had fun with my cousin! it's been so long since i saw her. i cant even remember when was the last time i met her. anywayss. i went out with her for one day only! so fed up. i didnt know where to bring her you know so i asked her where she want to go, then she was like anywhere except for si be lo( shi ma lu, is it??) and i find it so funny because she was damn pissed cause its like she was here for erm..5 days? and her parents went to si be lo everyday! i mean like seriously?!! what they do there man!! and we went crazy after dinner at Waraku. we practically laughed all the way home. i have no idea why. i guess its because of the sake.haha.

And it's been 1 year since my grandpa passed away. and i couldn't sleep the night before my last paper again just like last year. i miss you tata :(

And! Jeffrey got accepted by UWA for the July intake.
akjsdhalnyufwepo!!kjhasdk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if everything goes well (for him) then i think he'll go to Perth next month for 3 years. 3 friggin' years and he won't come back until he graduates because money is bloody tight. SHITZZZ.
Love is not supposed to be selfish but whatever.!! i dont want him to go away for whatever selfish reasons that i have.
and seriously i dont think long distance relationship will work like honestly let's be practical. i'm not even sure whether i can still love him despite the distance. Sounds very very stupid but come on la.
i know this is bad but i hope that er..he won't go next month because..of..er..whatever la.HAHA wtf i can't even bear to say it because i'm very scared that if i really got what i wished for..then.. it'll be damn bad to him and he'll be the saddest boy alive and i wouldn't want that to happen.
but then again if he can't make it for the july intake, he'll still go for next february intake.

HOW NOW BROWN COW?!!!

and of course lately i cant help but to feel that he doesnt love me as much anymore. maybe its time to break things off. well that sounds stupid. okay lets forget that.
what the hell its like i'm babbling all the way here so dumb.
6years7months. really should i just give up after all these crazy years just because he's going away for 3 solid years? ohno. when i think about it again.3 years is a really really long time. i know i always say time flies but i dont think this applies to the current situation. grrrr.
ahahahha suddenly i feel like laughing.omg. bad sign. i'm going crazy!!

i need to have a very serious talk with Jeffrey.

anyway went to SGH this morning and i wasn't late!! amazing. anyway went to see the skin culture place. quite interesting i think. after that went to eat porridge at Chinatown with..er who ah?! oh Peng Ghee..and Joel..and some more guys. anyway the porridge was not nice and i can see the fungus in the century egg!! gross.HAHAA.

after that took train to Kallang cause i wanted to go to Kallang Leisure park to 'cause my bother want to bowl. anyway we didn't bowl in the end because there's no lane!! waste my time man. some more i got lost in Kallang. hhahaha so weird. anyways. parents + brother going to taiwan in a few hours time. boo. and theres acupuncture today. more boo.

2008-05-20T23:48:00.002+08:00

How i spent my holiday (a.k.a Vesak Day) :

killed lots of monsters
went to giant to but groceries with Jeffrey
watched retarded movie with Jeffrey

Okay so thats all. anyway the movie i watched was really really retarded. it's called Teeth. check it yourself if you want to know how retarded is it.

So there's lots of homeworks to do but as usual i'm in denial so i'm not doing any work now..

2008-05-18T15:08:00.002+08:00

You know i keep on thinking about what the Cleo mag said, about how if we eat with smaller eater we'll decrease our food intake by 28% thing..and i think they're so wrong. Because let's say.. for example..if i'm a small eater and Leep is a big eater..then how come i'm the one who's following her instead of the other way around?! is it because i'm greedy?? so yeah. i think theyre wrong because....well the smaller eater could be following the bigger eater so therefore... the food intake will increase instead of decreasing!!!

Anyways.told my father that i want to go to Aussie after i graduated and so. he asked me who am i going with? then i was like.hmm.no one? jeffrey might be going though (which was a big mistake). so then my mom started saying things like oh! jeffrey is going! so if you go then you'll be free la! which obviously means that.....you know.
so anyway thats quite true.so now my chances of going to Aussie is almost 0. but then again. it's pretty stupid because..even if i don't go with jeffrey.. i can find other guys there and be free right?! so now i'm angry because..er.. this is too plain stupid.

LAST lab on Friday was BAD. not because i feel guilty for torturing no. 62 mice, but because the mice was so jumpy and violent that day!! i couldn't even restraint her and she kept on biting me la damn it.so in the end, i didn't do anything to the mice.which is a good thing if you think about it. oh i injected her tail though. and i didnt feel guilty about it because at that time i was already too angry with the mice.

2008-05-17T01:56:00.002+08:00

you know because i was bored during lecture, i started to like stare at leep's pencil. you know how leep always use this pink Minnie mouse pencil and there's this Minnie Mouse's head dangling from the pencil. i started staring at that head during lecture and i felt so giddy because leep always write everything that the lecturer said during lect!! so she was like writing nonstop and the minnie's head is like bobbing around and all. haha DAmn random lah.

So on Thursday, pg and I got 4 hours break. and leep got 3. So they decided to go to pg house and slack you know. and me..being the usual lightbulb tagged along la obviously. so we slacked around his room for few hours and so..and so..because we're so darn hardworking..we skipped LAST lect.ahaha oh yay.
oh you know. pg and Leep are such a bad influenceeee. they made me skipped acupuncture on thursday ( and LAST lect too).HAHa

then you know on Cleo Feb edition, they say that we can decrease the amount of food that we eat by 28% if we eat with people that have small appetites. Then i was like..what the hell. now wonder i never lose weight..knw why? cause i eat with Pg and Leep like everyday lah!! and they eat a lotttt.like pig like that haha. damn it.

anywaysss. i'm sleepy. HAHA

2008-05-13T00:38:00.003+08:00

Today's a tiring day.eventhough i didnt do much today (as usual)
anyways.proud of myself because i finally get Leep to teach Rtechb and i actually listened! havent finish the whole chapter though but well at least now i understand more things.
Pg ps me today because he's sick!!

I really really wish that my number 62 mice will die today.or any day before friday.please mice just die peacefully before i torture you further. heard that for this week LAST lab we have to inject the mice. i dont want to do that.! omg. i'm dreading it i'm serious! and i heard that..we have to learn how to kill them at the end of this course.omg. i hope we dont have to do that. like seriouslyyy. i hope they put that in the practical notes just for our own information please. i will skip it if i have to kill them i'm telling you. i really didnt expect this LAST lab will affect me until like this. wtshit!!

hmm.i'm sleepy.

2008-05-11T01:47:00.002+08:00

Everybody told me that we'll learn how to restrain mice during LAST lab.
but nobody told me that we're going to punch their ears.. NOT EVEN ONE.
bloody hell LAST lab was pretty traumatising. me and pengghee were practically stoning after lab because it felt weird, crazy and sinful to cut and punch her ear!! (her meaning the mice)
i didnt expect to be so affected by that actually, but well i was wrong.
oh no!. how. there are still so many sessions to go to.
mice please don't die. i don't want to fail.

2008-05-08T23:19:00.002+08:00

school sucks. it's been almost 3 weeks since school starts and i still can't get the hang of it.

i've been trying hard to concentrate and listen to what Jason was saying during lecture(instead of dreaming and you know..looking at him) but obviously i failed. i was kinda successful during the first part of Wednesday's lecture and i was quite proud of myself HAHA but during the starting of the 2nd hour..i started to dream and so i got lost-er than i already was. and i was completely lost during tutorial today. how great.

then i hate the timetable this sem because i can only wear slipper once a week!!!! what is this??!!!
i have labs like 4 times a week. so sadd :(

then. i am in the same class with some..annoying people..and not in the same class as caroline for the first time in 2 years! and not even in the same class as Leep!! instead i got Pengghee again.i've been in the same class as him since...like forever. since year1sem1 btw. so i have no one to depend on now. and hence that explains why i still can't get a hang of school yet. so it looks like i have to start studying on saturdays. this is the first time in my life i feel so panicky because i realise i just cant understand whats going on during Rtechb. and this is just the beginning! i can't depend on anybody anymore!! i'm so sad. oh man i'm such a leecher.

okay so today was pretty tiring. so i skipped Revelations class eventhough today is the last session! i'm so bad.!! then why are there so many irritating people during LAST lecture? hmm i wonder why.HAHA.

what else. Jeffrey's decided that he's going to get a degree. he wanted to go to some private uni here but apparently Singapore is just hmm..what's the word ah..retarded?hahaha very limited vocab.anw they just don't offer the degree that he wants. so he decided to go to Aussie. so well. so okay la. i dont know whats going to happen to us if he really go away because...if there's one thing that i don't believe in..it's got to be long distance relationship. i won't do LDR. NEVER!! hmm. maybe i should join him after i graduate. wohoo. how exciting!! but i dont feel like studying anymore. but how am i supposed to survive with the measle amount of pay that i get from only having a diploma??!

is it possible that maybe 30% of the freshmen live around bedok? or have to take 69 to school?? the queue was madness!! like it went all the way to the pathway beside the hawker. some more my classes start at 9 almost everyday. sigh. why am i always complaining? i think i have to be grateful for whatever i have now.

going for Global Day of Prayer on Sunday!! i'm quite excited :D anybody want to join me?

2008-04-28T01:56:00.002+08:00

this year is a sucky shithole year. how many times have i like said that already?
you know..actually i dont know what to say. i want to hate and hurt him so bad but i cant do that..
lots of things happened over the weekend. i think i need some time to let the big stuff sink in.

on the other hand, today was a nice day eventhough i skipped chruch this morning and missed a good sermon. but well.. spent the whole day with my siblings and i really had fun.

and.i hate the humid weather these days. so annoying.

2008-04-26T01:41:00.002+08:00

first week of school.what can i say about it? the timetable's pretty annoying as usual because the lesson end at 6 for 3 days.then..somewhere along the week i kinda realised that i might be more interested in pharmacy stuff than tissue engineering. and i guess i have to struggle with another CSAS this sem. i guess this sem is the worst 'cause there'll be lots of assignments to do.for CSAS i mean. after all the bad things that happened since the beginning of this year.. i can only hope that i can clear all the subjects this sem so that i don't have to be a year 4 student.

so what else..my grandma is here 'cause she wants to see her great grandchild of course. My nephew's name is Raphael Permana by the way. then..my parents and grandma and some other people are going to Taiwan tmr. then Jeffrey is always busy nowadays that somehow it starts to annoy me. hmm.

you know..i think growing old is a really scary thing. My grandma is healthy, but of course there are some stuff that she can't do now simply because she's old. almost every night she asked me to put on some moisturizing lotion on her back because it's itchy and dry because her oil glands don't work properly anymore. she can even leave her hair alone for 2 weeks (meaning she doesn't wash them for two weeks) 'cause her hair won't be oily anymore.
then there's my mother. she exercise frequently and eat healthyly(?) but her knee and joints are always painful because well..she's old and so her soft bones are like dissappearing(?) shit my spelling sucks.
and then there's my father and his high blood pressure. growing old is a really really scary thing.

oky so now...i got to go.haha! what an abrupt ending.

2008-04-12T02:53:00.002+08:00

I'm super bored. really really bored.
and i'm still in a bad mood.
keep on listening to In Christ Alone over and over and over again.
I'm feeling super emo these few days. i can't stand myself.

You're killing me slowly and i'm missing you still. what's wrong with me?

2008-04-09T02:21:00.002+08:00

check this out:
www.malepregnancy.com
wtf right. such a weird world.

i can't get over the fact that school is starting really really soon. i hate it so much.
anyways.new maid arrived today. so my mom kinda sack my older maid. she didn't even know that my mom is going to replace her until when her agent came. i feel so bad for her. i mean she's really annoying la 'cause she always like touch my face and all,(with her dirty hand, wet and all..yucks)some more she's really er..slow and she likes to lie! omg. but i still feel damn bad la seriously.at first i don't feel anything you know 'cause she's annoying, but then my sis told me she looked damn pitiful and all omg i feel so bad i almost cry wth!

hm.what else.oh i have a new nepheww!! anyway my cousin-in-law(is there such a thing?)anyway my cousin's wife just gave birth like yesterday morning! wanted to go and see her but obviously i couldn't wake up and my parents just left me at home. i still dont know his name btw.

if anyone of you have the time, check this blog http://korneliuskevinkristian.blogspot.com/.
he's my friend's friend and he posts his own short stories there. and his short stories are good!! really.he's so cool.oh and he's in NTU.younger then me but he's in uni already.wth. i'm such a failure. oh oh.btw. his short stories are in Indon. so..er.. i dont even know how many of my Indon friends are reading my blog.i guess none. but well i guess Mai can check it out yeah hahahaaa.

meeting gen and mich again tmr. oh yay!

i'm in a really really bad mood.i feel so sad i want to cry so badly. i miss you so muchhhhhhhhh :(

2008-03-31T02:10:00.003+08:00

you know..school is reopening in about 3 more weeks.and that's pretty depressing eventhough i started to feel really bored and hating it.
that sounds weird i know but then i just love to have free time everyday like now man.. oh and i've been using these free time to do stickers shopping(of course), play games and think about lots of stuff.maybe it's too early to say this but you know i think 2008 sucks.really. it didn't start off well at all.
firstly i had a cold war with my brother and that's like the first time it happened.then, all my kittens dissapeared, all 4 of them.i mean what are the odds man? after that things happened to my cousin.okay actually she did it to herself and the whole family was upset about it i guess.not really my problem here but since it affected the whole family, it became lil' bit of my problem.heh. after that, the crazy thing happened.and up till now i still can't believe i did that.there are so many things that's been bothering me and that makes me feel real emo.anyways.lets forget about all the sad&annoying things.

well well. it's been 6years and 5months. Thank you for everything baby.
eventhough you dont have time to accompany me as always.but its okay because i love you all the same :)

2008-03-26T23:27:00.003+08:00

Finally met Gen and Michelle!! miss them very much.! anyways.went to TM to meet them and we ate at Seoul Garden. so we talked talked talked and gossiped and ate of course!what else can we do right haha.after that went to shop around.very satisfying day because i bought lots of stickers!! yay.spend around $30 for stickers believe it or not.hahahahaa!.anyway TM and Century Square are like the best la! cause they have Mini Toons, Art Box (new place that sells stuff like stickers and stationaries from Korea) and there the lovely Lovely Land(pun intended) haha. okay after all the shoppings, Gen and me wanted to take neoprints but then as usual Mich was very reluctant, but we dont care! haha then in the end guess who is the one who know more about the neoprint machine?? Michelle okay. i bet she always take neoprints secretly loh! oh btw look at the photo's decoration!! they're like foodss!! very suitable for greedy people like us.! heheh.anyway michelle's taking 7 days leave some time soon so we'll meet up again soon. YAY.

2008-03-19T08:59:00.002+08:00

okay so. i think i should find another job because Made With Love will only call me when there's not enough full-timer. i think that's just a nicer way to reject me.hahA!
anyways. i'm really sick of being at home. not because i'm bored really. but because of..someone..who keeps on bugging me to clean my room (when it's quite clean..serious) and always want to move my stuff out of my drawer because she wants to keep my sister's stuff in my drawer..
okay so my parents will be leaving for Macau today.. i think should start watching The L Word (link?)
i'm sick and i really really hate it.

2008-03-15T02:10:00.002+08:00

US Dollars is like going down! so it's time for more online shoppingggg!! wohoo. oh.stickers shopping to be exact.
anyway.cupcake decorating class was fun!!
and..i got a job at Made With Love! they pay is pretty sucky but..the job sounds fun..so yeah.
okay thats all.
and oh oh. Jefrrey's house adopted a Siberian Husky and a Collie! i'm super duper excited to meet them tomorrow :D

2008-03-12T02:08:00.002+08:00

feel better about everything now.yay :)

anyway i'm so teary today.you know i checked my mailbox, then there this letter from some buddhist society which is like for my grandpa..then i almost cry when i saw it :(
oh i received two of my stickers/memo sheets packages today. oh yay.they arrived safely so i'm happy! oh other than that..my sis is engaged! hehe no link.

hmm should i go back to Indo?! how.my mom and grandma keep on bugging me about it so annoying!! okay..i'll list out the advantages & disadvantages of going back.

advantage(s):
-get to stay with my nephew!
-can go around and find cheap stickers(!!!!!!!!!!!!)
-can avoid my mom & grandma nagginess(?)
-can become smarter haha!! what freak
-can hang out with my crazy cousins and auntiess

disadvantages:
-will miss Jeffrey very very badly
-very hard to come online so..thats very bad (very good for my online shopping addiction though)
-will be bored because all my sisters will be here
-i dont really want to go back

how?! i mean i really dont feel like going back..but whenever i think about the stickers that i can buy...oh my..i cant take it.haaha.

2008-03-07T23:37:00.002+08:00

i feel..weird. i mean it's great that they're together. but then at the same time i'm pretty upset too.i mean why dont they tell me earlier? i hate to be a lightbulb, like seriously. i mean maybe it's not their fault because she somehow gave me hints not to come.but then i wasn't sensitive enough i guess? but she could have like told me directly right because if they told me i would like totally understood it you know..like i won't disturb them..and when they were like er..doing something..what the hell should i do? i mean its like their time you know.its like i was invading(?) their privacy and that feeling suck like..er..like sucky shit?wth?haha and yeah so i was really upset about that.maybe i was too sensitive? and i think everything will change from now on. like you know it wont be how it used to be. you know..

anyways.yesterday's Revelation class was interesting. better than the first class thats for sure. so yeah.hmm.hmm. nothing else to say 'cause i'm still feeling weird.
btw i'm halfway through Life Art now. Kevin is so handsomeeee.

2008-03-05T02:35:00.002+08:00

just feel like blogging eventhough there's nothing much to blog.
okay so i'm done with Dicey Business.haha no comment. and now i'm halfway through Words twister's Adventure or smth like that. No life i tell you.keep on watching dramas.
haven't swim for 2days and i just had sakae buffet today. die manzz.
anws. today was pretty fun. went to PS with the clique and we spent hours gossiping, laughing and eating and eating and eating.
btw Aili. i still find it funny about that thing.hahaha that's like super duper unexpected!!

i miss gen and mich very very much! and their results are coming out this Friday. i feel real scared for them.

few days ago, i was damn hungry until i got headache and therefore couldn't sleep. and i cant take food downstairs 'cause it was 3am and i was scared la duh. so started sms-ing Jeffrey and asked him lots of random and weird questions like whats your fav. colour and all that shits. he was being nice 'cause he entertained me until i can sleep. i havent talk to him today (except when he called me twice and those phone calls lasted less than 5 minutes), and no, we're not fighting or anything. hmm. feels so weird. i'm so dependant on him and sometimes that scares me. i miss him :(

my parents are in Penang now. haha very random!!
oh oh.everbody keep on asking me to go back to Indo to learn driving and to pick up some basic comp skill (because i'm a microsoft office noob)! i don't want to go back alonee. and i dont want to learn driving because i'm scared to drive. and i don't want to be seperated from Jeffrey!!.walao-eh so drama.

anyways, can't wait for :
-sticker packages to arrive!!
-cupcake decorating class :)!!!

2008-03-03T01:40:00.002+08:00

i've been feeling really good 'cause i've been doing nothing this holiday, and i don't have to feel guilty about it.like you know, i don't have to think that 'oh i shouldnt relax 'cause i still have to study'
yeahh very nice feeling.

anw.i've been watching Dicey Business.omg damn annoyinggg.i'm at episode 31 now and grrr i'm so angry. lai fu is so darn stupid. yuckss so annoying lehh.

so what have i been doing all these time? hmm.. watch dramas, swimming, and my latest addiction is.. online shopping..for stickers. woohooo
i'm so hooked on online shopping!! i already spent almost $100..and i don't have any job now. die la like that. but i'm happyy!!!!!!!!!!!! and broke.

2008-02-28T13:20:00.002+08:00

i really hate it when somebody force/pressure me to do things that i don't want to do.
i mean of course i have my own reason for not wanting to do it.
and also, you're part of the reason why i don't want to do it.
grr.

2008-02-27T22:42:00.002+08:00

oh yeah exam's over. actually not so excited 'cause i've been slacking since..er..before exam starts. haha

anyways.went to peng ghee's house after exam to have steamboat. his dog is damn cute!! so unlike the owner.!after that i slept like a pig on his sofa. wah i love his sofa.wanted to bring it home but obviously cannot right. so just slacked and we gambled and i lost everything. i really have no talent in gambling. and when walking to the bus stop to go home, i realised that his house is really near to Jeffrey's. wanted to stop by but he's not home so yeah..

so i'm glad that everything's over. now i can play whenever i want without having to feel uneasy. and also. i guess the problem's solved.so yeah. everything worked out alright and i'm quite thankful for that.

so.. it's time to play now. yayyy.